::BraNdY-gUrL::

Back from Earth..Lost from Reality

2007-01-30T19:16:00.000+08:00

and it juz sux..

Emo Overrulling...

Nth's Wrong with me.. everything's juz wrong..

i do wad i want..wad i like..and what i deem rite..

FiNaaLLy...

2007-01-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

FiNallyyy...miss me riteeee...ok...i'm back to crap..!!!! bLeaHhh...

hMmmmm...ever since my last postt...i've been thru such thrills and fun...hahahaha

incase u dunnoe...i went to bangkok..with my love and my irritating but cute sis..5 daes 4 nites had been such fun thereee...[=..made me love my love even moreee...i love u Xuan Feng..tiL BiTs and Piecess..til..the stars are jealous..tiL..the dae u turn into a pig..i'll still love u..i promiseee...[=..

christmas dinner was kinda grosss...sad to saee..sakura opp cineleisure SUX to the coree..and if u evr vist dere after reading this post..u're a damn idiot..i repeat..PLZ DUN GO DEREee..

countdown wass...WOOOOoOPpp...sUperb's the word...first...met peiyi and steph at cityhall fer lunch...den eve fer sum flowerss....den..headed down to hype it up comp...congrats 'in da hse'..and von's got dope hair..ahahahaa..(cuz i did it..together with peiyi and steph..)...dar's grp got merit..not too badd..hahaha..except fer the sad fact tht...7 of them gotta share a $500 capitol voucher......SOOOoooooo...TREAT'S ON SWEEEETTTIEeee....(flashes my sweeties smile..) hEeeHEeeee...

dEeenn....headed down to yuxin's placeee aft thatt..which..EVERYONEEE from ppl we knoe til dunnoe got dunk into the pool upon countdown..and i was SWING IN by sum unknown ppl together with pei yi...hahahhaa...we held on to our dear lifee...butt stilll....no help....[=.....and xiang wasssss.......worse than a pig..hahaa..insist dun let us dunk his loveey jaei..hahahahaaaa.....but still..it was super fun.....thanks to yu xin..[=.. but aft sum of us went off..both...von and wq jump into the pool themselves..DRUNK obviously..LOLXxx...i hope everyone had fun...[=.....

til den..sch's open tmr......ok...let's hug each other and sob togetherr...*soBxx*...
and Best of luck everyone fer ur results...[= u reap wad u sow..so if u didn't study..dun complain..if u studied...try harder...lolxxx...*riteee*..

and i haf a lil secret to share before i end noww........
my darling's feeding me black forest cake and coffee cake...
hahaa..dun jealousss....Nitee!!! bYEeeBYEeee

I LOVE U XUAN FENG

HAPPIE 19TH BIRTHDAE TRACY WAN LILIN

2006-12-10T03:44:00.001+08:00

First of all..HAPPIEEEee 19th BIRTHDAE TRACY WAN..
though u're alwaes the last to turn older..almost when the yr's almost up..we still love yaa..

thinkin back..i miss the times we used to write each other 7 to 8 postcards EVERYDAEEe although we see each other EVERY SINGLE DAEee!! i miss the times kim..adel and i would meet at boonlay fer sch everydae picking u up at clem bus stop..i miss the PMS daes..the Girls' Brigade daee..the hanging outs..and simply the warmness u guys could offer..

but i guess..things change..cuz we're constantly pushed to move on..many things u dun ever wans an end..had been forced into beautiful memories u nv wanted to haf..sumtimes yes..u realli wan them as they used to be..but sumtimes..let's admit..we tot we can do without turnin ur vision back..as u move on life's journey..everything slowly becums the future..not yesterdaee..sumtimes u stop..and wants to seek the comfort u once had..but u struggle in findin them now..

it's not easy i guess..to juz be u or urself..it's not easy being tracy..it's not easy being med..it's not easy being kim..it's not easy being rino..it's not easy being sam..it's not easy being min..it's not easy being yen..it's not easy being xf..and it's definitely not easy being ME..i dun understand how each and every of u is living ur life..and let's be fair..U DUN UNDERSTAND MY LIFE TOO..sumtimes u think ur problem is the biggest..and ur life is the worse..tt's becuz u haven met one tt's worse than urs..u think u're all cooped up with work and assignment..and u tink u haf tonnes of them..but dun think NO ONE CAN EVER HAF LESSER THAN URS..if u think u're a busy person and yet u can sqeeze out time..haf u ever thot sumone has felt that 24 hrs a dae is nv enuff fer 2 whole yr already?

ok..if i think i'm living my life to the FULLEST of wad GOD could grant outta 24 hrs..i may be wrong..sumone might be like me..and even using my sleeping hrs to work on stuffs..and how do we measure..*childish*..i mean..who cares who has more things to do..or is more busy..u juz haf to go with the heart..

u dun feel it..yet u wanna go ahead with it and feel weird doing it..u wish to go..but u haf other things in hand..u wish to go again..but u will juz feel outta placee..buts buts butts..and they equate selfish?? fine if tt's ur deduction..u haf the final sae to ur OWN thinking which u so conveniently label it as unselfish thinking urself..

and how well do u reckon u noe me now..or rather how well do u think u can noe a person when u see the person at most 4 times a yr..? and u expect..and demand..neglectin other FACTS..

i'm not sayin she no longer needs us..but let's juz be frank here..QTMK- had been overidden..almost rather long ago if u had been asleep fer quite a while..and if u had juz woken up aft abt 1 yr of slp..u would haf noticed this..and the muz hafs are no long QMK fer T..it's BKTG now..no offence..but u noe i'm frank..

if forcing time out on special occasions is wad u deem fit as EFFORT..i beg to differ..EFFORT is all time round..not juz on special occasions..ever heard of the phrase..'everydae is Valentine's dae when i'm with u'...u dun juz purposely love that person more simply bcuz it's Vdae..so are u implyin that the other daes were almost rather fake den? no it's not wad u meant..but it's ur concept..

if QTMK is wad's on ur mind..and it noe it's a special occasion fer T..but by using T's special occasion to hit and hurt another..u think it's an effort to put QTMK together? it's quite non sensicaL..one hand u're smashin one corner outta the 4..the other hand..u're smashing the opposite corner urself..and u blame me fer destroying this nice picture..

ruined or not..u decide..and reflect urself..if wad u DID and SAID to me was ritee..but ultimately i noee..u will still think i'm at fault..and u haf none..it's normal..the kinship is long gone anywae..mutual understanding had been long forgotten anywae..trust had been thrown awaee..blames had been makin it's wae to us..coloured lens and perception is wad we possessed now..assumption is QTMK's new found friend..

if u think by lashin out..u feel better..go ahead..cuz i do...and maybe tt's wad i'm doin now..i'm not at all pissed..realli..cuz dere's no much pt gettting pissed at ppl u actualli love..i'm juz being realli frank..cuz tt's how i wanna be with u guys..if u can't take this..u're not ready fer reality..

a bond takes a process..not once in a while thing..u can't demand comfort..u haf to build the comfort zone..if it was in the past..it's realli no doubt dere's no one ANY of us wun be dere fer ANY occasions..but it's realli different now..

i dun wanna tok abt it anymoree...
leave me alone anywae..
i'll be fine..though ur blame kinda hurt quite bad..
i dunnoe how we are now..
or where we each stand in each other's heart..

dun put one down juz to bring the other up..it'll nv work this wae..

i got no more to saee...

2006-12-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

someone..

there's this girl..used to be sumone special..still is in a wae or 2...though we seldom speak nowww...hope u're finee...actualli i noeee u're happieee...hehehehee..[=..and tt's enuff..i miss ya arieLx.C

den there's this other person..who keeps everything to herself/himself..(or let's juz call herself...)..and most of the time..this person appears happiee and fun..but seem realli broken insidee..sumtimes i wished u would sharee..but i noe u wun..and i nv dreamt u would to mee..but it's ok..cuz not tt it matters even if i noe a not..

juz wanna take this sumone out of bitterness..and sumtimes i wonder..wad could it bee..tt's bothering u sinceee...

u've touched me..in many waes or 2..big or small..and i realli appreciate that..

stay strong juz fer who u are..and how God wants u to be..for everything happens fer a reason..if ur misery has to be a reason in the good deed for others..u're not miserable..u're an example of goodwill..*sMileSx*..God loves this children..[=

2006-12-05T16:33:00.000+08:00

wOOooooo...Common test's coming......hmMmmmm...Did sumone juzzzz...mention......COMMON TESTTTT!!!!

i can senseee..all u panic ppL!! bLeahHH!!!

Butter factory todaeee...NRA's big outing i guess..booked the whole club...BUT BUTTt but the most wonderful thing iss..I CAN'T MAKE IT!! *huMMmPH*...cuzz cuzzz..as usuall..too last min..already have plan fer todaeee...which is my work's bbq and chalet..already promised..already paid..so..how to sae no last min..?? soBxx..it's ok..anywhere..is fineee..[=

i'm a happiee girl..besides losing much company from QTMK..miss them..realli..and tracy's bdae is cominggg.....!!! [=..lalallalaaa..

i'm happieee..cuz..

1) i'm catching up with my EM3A....[MATH!!!]

2) French is fun!!

3) Dog Cafe for innovative project is FUN!!

4) i've got crappy good colleagues and classmates

5) i've got lovely xuan feng to constantly drive me insanee..

6) cuz i start speaking to ppl i wanna tok to again..[= [=..

7) cuz i'm going bangkok with loving xuan feng and crazy stella...

8) cuz i am looking forward for a dog!!!

9) cuz dance have started all again

10) cuzz...juz cuzzz..life is beautifuL with ppl i love around!!

stay happieee ppL...stay out of trouble zoneeee!!

2006-11-29T21:30:00.000+08:00

u noe i didn't feel good doin that..u noe u shouldn't haf brought ur personal life against EVERYONE else..u should noe there is a right time fer everything...

i stood up..cuz i dun wan u to mix all ur life up..u ever said..dance is ur everything..and even if onli a few ppl turn up.. u will still go fer dance...so wad's the big difference this time??

i understand..i totally do..it's not like i dun feel pissed sumtimes when one of us is called back to dance when they're juz slacking around when i can spend more time with him..but..tt's PERSONAL LIFE..rant it to each other..not ur fellow dancers...

ok..edit..u didn't rant..but it was juz realli not right..if u still thinku did nth wrong..think again..dere's no right or wrong..it's sad we haf to cum to this stage..but it's ok..ppl change anywae..

i'm sry if i hurt u..but ur change in character and attitude hurt those who love u even more...it's ur life..and i noe u've sank in it..but it's no excuse to disallow u to differentiate right from wrong..u noe i'm nv against u..nv wan to be....

nv..

2006-11-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

NRA AGM..and dance's gonna start soon...!!!! heheheeeee...[=...

saw the supposedly 'noob' dance by nra jrs and addictors todaeee..hahaa...amazin how they all grew...hopefully we're taking aft them...[=..haha..now think back..CCA FIESTA!!!!! whahahahaaa...we also quite noob la hOrr...bleah...[=...

I LOVE RINO..EVELYN..NEXA..PEYCHEE...all the couples who took fotos together [lolx]..and all enthu and nicee freshiess...[=...

haf fun..peacee..

Sweeeeeetie Pieeee

2006-11-17T00:19:00.000+08:00

he looks like the one on his right..agreeee?? my fallen asleep angel...=p..MUUUuuAAaahHHhhh!!!!

2006-11-17T00:04:00.000+08:00

and..the HAWD topic now is...DANZATION's over!! yeap..it is..it's sad..how all the sweat and tears are gonna be a part of juz MEMORIES nowww..[=..when we haf them..we complain it's too much training..too much hard work..too tiring..but i'll rather complain all of those mention..den to complain..DERE'S NO DANCEEeee...=`p

alright..most ppl enjoyed danzation..sum not realli tt much..but it's ok..wad matters most fer most thing is the process..not the end result..no one is pro..and we it leaves room fer improvements fer ppL..[=..wad realli matter most to me was tt true frenship fostered..and of cuz everyone did improve in one wae or another..[=..we knew each other better thru this production..and everyone's true and beautiful in their very own unique wae..how public sees us is not tt impt ya..[=..WE LOVE EACH OTHER..=]

and NRA has touched a deep part of mee..i'm glad i found NRA..[=..

NRA ---> NEW REVOLVING AGE

another meaning---> No one can ever Replace Ann...(quoted by xiangmei..)

and how true is tt!! i'm juz surprised and touched by the kind of bond we haf as a family..[=..though internal conflicts are inevitable..bottom line is..no one is tt selfish still..[= we still help each other when everyone's in need..[=..i haf mani special ppl to thank fer this whole period of time..,but i'll go into tt nxt post!!

STAY HAPPIEEee folks!! maucksss...

2006-11-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!! from my looooonnngggg...hMmmm...self proclaimed vacation for blogging..!! and guess wad's been happening?? dance dance and MOREEE DANCEEeee..but it's gonna be over soon!! real sooN!! This cuming sat and sun...is our real..BIG and last dae of production stuffs!!! den...we'll all be freee!!!! i can't wait.serious...to spend more quality time with my beloved..[=

for my beloved..
i'm sry fer the wae i used to make u feel..
i'm sry fer the times i throw my tantrum around..
i'm sry fer the wae i used to neglect ur feelings..
but noticee..it's USED TO!!! lolx..
i'm lovin u..

fer my lovely rino..
SmilEee girL..dere's alwaes sunshine aft the rain!! and i'll be hereee..juz a call awaee..we can meet up..and chill and tok..alone or with a few otherss..[=

fer my wifey...eve dear..keep smiling too!! cuz u'll nv noe who's fallin in love with ur smileee...[= heeZz *chuckles*

and i'm off again..waiting fer lunch..i can't wait..to eat (with) u..

fer u..
honestly..i'm realli happie fer ya..and i hope the best fer ya..realli glad u've found someone worthy..!! but dun ferget..i'm alwaes ard still if u ever need a listening ear..and DUNCH U DAREEEee neglect mee aft u get her!!

2006-10-25T18:34:00.000+08:00

beaching yesterdae sux...was a bad choice..with all the..HEI HEI HEii...BLEAH!!

but the ppl dere WITH MEe..made it fun and enjoyable..the onli sad thing?? i dun look much any tanner than beforeee..!! wad went wrong man...

den we headed fer VIVO...(again..)..and RoN insisted on his carls' Jr AGAIN..but..it's realli..yUmmmmmYy laa...hahaha..same old thing...hahhaa..shared MUSHROOOMMMm burger double with my loveee..evelyn..[=..with lemon tea and i swear..LOTSA LEMON!!! muahahahaa...

chillin at the top of vivo is juz so much fun..laugther and relaxing..and often..we get to 'bump' into ppL..likeee..COUPLESSsss...known..or unknown...hahaha..2 times we've been there...2 timess we found ppL..[=..hahahaaa..so COUPLESsss..if u dun wanna bump into pppL..DUN DATE THEREE!! [=..muahahaa..

and our good 'old breaker leaf fren' muz still be breakin deree..

but thanks anywae guys..fer making my daeee..[=

2006-10-19T00:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE BURFDAE TO U..
HAPPIE BURDAE TO U..
HAPPIE BURFDAE TO PEI YI!!!
MAY THE GOOD LORD BLESS U..!!

here i am...
trying to my best..to understand and comprehend..
with thots in my head..i wish would fade..
u shot me dead.. with the words u said..

fer things u didn't do..and actions u would take..
why try to make it thru when everything seems fake..
effort was effortless..nonchalence was never..
but now it seems like..nonchalence is effortless..and effort isn't forever..

wad great impact this had taken..
fer smtg which juz can't be forsaken..
it had been too long..
when will it be gone?
a wound was found..
as the rose fell to the ground..

my onli wish is to end this fight..
wad can i do to make it right?
ferget abt my pains..ignore my existance..

it's juz the emo creature creeping up at me..[AGAIN]

maybe it's juz the night laa..it's a night thing..

2006-10-10T13:42:00.000+08:00

hMmm...ok...i've not been missing from this surface of the earth yet..
juz tt sum of u see me often..some quite often..sum NOT AT ALL..sum EVERYDAEEeeee..[=

life's not so much of ups and downs fer me noww..maybe i'm happiee..the wae i am now..or maybe there can be sum MINOR adjustment juz to make life better than noww..

an old fetish picked up again..ANIMALSSs!!

yeah..u noee..i love those cute lil fury balls of lives...they add life to ur family..they bring natural smiles to meee...[=..hehehee..

and on top of all these..they teach u to be responsible..loving and caring...[=..hehehe..

Ohh..and i'm craving fer a lil puppy soon...ANYONE PLZZzz??? i love schnauzer..old english sheepdog..maltese...spaniel..and anything and everything..!!! I LOVEEE DOGS!!!! and cats..and rabbits..and bunny...[not u bunny!! the REAL BUNNY!! hahahahaa..]..

ok..i'm waiting....[=..
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wait...
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still waitin..
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still still waiting..
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tired of waiting..

fearful of looking in ur eyes

..maybe it's best to sae goodbye..

2006-10-06T12:32:00.000+08:00

aNd Now...another's off to aRmY..

Bye Ma0Mi...

i pR0MisEee to TAKE CAREe of JJ...[=...whahahaaa....

aNd BeRt..i LOVE the touch in my heart when i saw ur post to DADDY and MUMMY..

words tt were hidden..
sumhow got forbidden..

and words i couldn't bring..
all sank down to the brink..

now they're all up again..
all that i wanted to saee..

credits to wilbert..
and NO..he ain't a bird..[=

wad u love..i hate..

2006-10-06T02:37:00.000+08:00

QUIT PRETENDING...(if u aree..)

it's wad we all dislike..

i hate it when it's done behind my back..

we pretend to dislike sumone whom we're actualli ok with..

admit it once again

Maybe cuz of social pressure..or wadeva form u're under..

dun tell me u love ONLI ME

Or worse still..u pretend not to love sumone u like...

u haf eyes fer her..dunch u?

convincing urself u dun when u actualli do..

STOP LYING..I SWEARRrr

sumtimes u do or sae things...

nv keep me in the dark baby..

thinking it's not so easy fer ppl to find out..

cuz it's worse if i find out myself..

but we're all linked..it's not difficult at all..

y didn't u juz saee..(if onli u told me..)

so..quit pretending everyone...follow ur heart..

den leave my mind to wonder..

300806 (TINK!!!!)

i dun care if u read this..

i'm growin sick of ur LAME excuses..

DUN EVEN THINK i'll cum back

if i ever walk out..

U CHOSE IT

2006-10-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

and my sis is married..

wedding was fun!! got ang paos and all!! hehehee..dinner was not too badd...[=..it realli made me see how 'xing fu' one can get...makes meee...wanna get married tooo!!! ANYONEEEEEee WANNA MARRY MEEEEeee?? heeXx!!! >.<...XF!! u noe u can't waitttt....(RigHttt...)..

hEr new hse is juz so niceeee!!! omgg...haiXxx..rich husband...u want wad..he buy wadddd...so nicee horr!!! (it's ok..i'll get mine too!! hehehe)..

watched ROB-B-Hood todaeee..not bad lehH!! Niceee sHoww!! hehehehee..makes me wanna haf kids!!! it's juz so cuteee...the babyyyy.....argggggghhhhhh...hehehhehee....i noe i'm thinking too much...

i'll gif u all that i Havee...
and ask of You No More than you can Give..

isn't this sweeet? it's by my bro-in-law to my sis...
i think it's so sincereee...[=

2006-09-28T01:19:00.000+08:00

different ppL has got different personality..
and they react to different situations in different ways..
fer meee..
i hate it when ppl tries to deny the obvious..
or lie their way thru..

if it's a yes...sae yes..
if it's a no..sae No...
easy..ain't it?? but not mani ppl can do..

ppl deny...lie..fer the good i noeee..but izzit becuz of insecurities?!

i'm straight..and quick at decisions..(sumtimes)..i noe how to begin with an end in mind..tt is to noe onli the truth..[=..beating around the bush ain't my cup of tea..esp when i'm serious abt smtg!! heheee...maybe tt's juz meee...[=

and onli one person can fit into this straight forward personality...joanna!!! she's alwaes this straight..nv beats around the bush..tt's wad i realli value in her..if u're good.she tells u u're good..if not..she dun bother to try and pacify u..she goes straight into ur weak pts..tt will probably send u to ur knees..she hits u back to reality..but it's me too..i'll rather hear it..den to lie to myself..bleah!!

hehehe..so..morale of this story..i work with a different system..nv lie..it'll bring u far in QiaNx's life..once u start lying..u find no wae back..and u live in fear..

so? DUN EVEN TRY TO..admit it from the start!!

the scariest thing abt making a mistake is not admiting it...
admit and chg..dun deny and carry on..[=

2006-09-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

ADMIT IT..( it's g0Ne )

if u're lousy at smtg...
dun hidee..or deny..
it'll get back to u...
and each time it gets back to u.
.it's even more terrifying..

lousy at smtg??it's ok..
WORK
ON IT!!!
dun deny..[=

dun wry..it's juz random!! hehee...

yesterdaee..juz suxx...headache to the max + puked..
and i still managed to write out 'We Belong Together' lyrics..hehee..not badd!! *cLaP cLaP*..

i'm sry if in my pain..i neglected sum of u...or were nasty to u guys..
i'm sry xf..fer makin ya feel unwanted and pushed awaeee..
i'm gratefuL Minz...once again..fer being there to take care of mee!!! [=
i'm thankful sophiee..fer ur smses..(but..u're juz not u anymore..=`[ )

todaee was good..but i'm still losing meee..

...Emotional trauma...

SaY G00dByEe

2006-09-25T01:16:00.000+08:00

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk..I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by..

Everything I tried to remember to say..Just went out my head..So I'm gonna do the best I can to get you to understand

But now your heart is breaking..And a thousand times ..I Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"Why am I taking so long to say this? But trust me, I neverMeant to crush your world..And I never Thought I would see the day we grew apart..And I wanna know..

How do you let it go? You just don't know.. What's on The other side of the door..When you're walking out, talk about it.. I hope you understand What I'm tryin to say.We just can't go on..how you not gonna see it?

There's never a right time to say goodbye..But I gotta make the first move '..Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me..

There's never a right time to say goodbye..But we know that we gotta go Our separate ways,,And I know it's hard but I gotta do it, And it's killing me..Cause there's never a right time..

Right time to say goodbye..

[=

2006-09-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

Nobody ever love work....i do... (not all the time though)

work was good..

but...smtg's brewin in work...which is makin me realli umcomfortable at times..

after work..was even better...[=

went penisula plaza aft lunch fer fun..and found out that it can be a treasure placee..IF U NOE HOW TO GO AROUNDd....

after which..i had smtg EXCITING to see to...i'm realli exhausted by now.....

well...at least my room is mess free nowww...still not exactly..

and well..since i haf nth much up this entry...might as well..

thanks girL..fer everything u did..in times of real trouble and frustration...u realli see who are the ones who will be there WITH ALL THE HEART..i'm touched..by mani small occasions..and lil things u've done..i love u minz..[=

i'm glad i've found back a few frenz..i'm glad i know wad's evolving around u RiNo..and i'm thankful for the long chat steph..u guys are juz so comfortable to be with..

i'm thankful for this special fren who nv fails to see thru me and make me smile..even though U ALWAES ASK ME TO SHUDDUPPPpppp..though u scold..(sumtimes)..though u are stern..though u...u...uu...are RUDEEEee...i still like ya cuz u are simply SO FUNNY..[=..THANKS FER SIMPLY BEING U...

emo overruled

IF U ONLI KNEW

ME.U.HIM.HER.THEY.US

2006-09-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

WITHIN AN HRRRr...

JUZ WHEN I TOT MY MOOD WAS PICKED UP AGAIN..
JUZ WHEN I TOT EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE OK..

a word fer yaa..

FARK OFF AND BLOODY

KEEP OFF MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPIEEEEEEeeee

2006-09-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

EQUINOX COMPLEX is so cool...pretty and all..juz being there and gazing from the top of singapore juz takes my mind off troubles..!!

de scenery is simply..breath takin...[= *tHuMpS uP*!!! for todaeee..i'm happieee..i think i found myself again..(not cuz of the equinox la!!) but it did play a big part laa...juz tt..work was so fufulling...!! like how it was in the past...when i stayedtil 6pm from 11am..i felt tt i could actualli work on til closing..but becuz of a pre-date..i can't...

and it took me to the TOPPPPP of Raffles Hotel..(dun jealouss)...yeah...70 storeys uP!! trust mee..juz by takin the lift..the pressure builds up in ur ear..and the air pressure leaves it painful..like those in the aeroplane..it's how high and fast the lift is..but the elevator is so good...u can't feel the speed..onli the presssuree!!..it's juz soooo..high classss!! AWESOM!!

seeing rich business man juz makes me wanna work hard...motivated to study well..get a SUPER GOOD LIFE nxt timeee...where these places becums a norm...[=...wooooHhooooo!!

security was sooooo tight at raffles hotel...must be due to IMF...juz by entering..u feel like u're going thru singpore custom!! scan thru bags..and usin the device to check ur body...CISCO IS EVERYWHEREEEEEeeeeeeee...but NEW ASIA BAR still rock like hell...

i noe i can't drink..but i onli drank sum...strawberry margaritaa!! at least it's wad i noe i could takee..still..i couldn't finish..(i noe i can't..)..calamari dere is so nice too!! drinks are actualli affordable at half price for their 'happie hr'..[=..food is slightly moreeee...prone to burning a hole in ur pocket..!!

no luck..couldn't tast EQUINOX food..it's FULLLY RESERVED when it's not even open yet..!! they suggested we go back at 930 to try our luck...and we've decided to cum back nxt time with RESERVED TABLE!!! but this is ex..i swearr..

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these few daesss...i'm fragilee...almost super fragilee...my frustration, irritant and tear glands are triggered almost as easily as u are tempted to eat chocs and all the fattening stuffss..

this is wad i call..EMO-OVERRULLING...and no..i dun think my menses are cuming..i think it's the emptiness in my lifee..and all the explosive inner stuffs in me left untouched..unsaid..and unresolved..

but i noeee...u can't run awae from problemss..cuz it'll make ur problem cum still..but it'll lash out on u unprepared..and each time it does..it brings more fear and insecurities..

they are hostile..i'm scared..and i hate thiss..

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but i still wanna dine in...at all the nice placeee...after SWISSOTEL-EQUINOX..i'm aiming RITZ CARLTON - SNAPPERS..!!...anyoneee gonna bringgg meeee???? hahahahhaha!!! jokesss..and i'm aiming the ICE-CREAM FRUIT BURGER MEAL at millenia walk too!!!! WOOoooHHHOoooo....(dere goes my diet...but it might take me nxt yr juz to visit them all..it's TOO EX!!!!!!)

Fate..i wun gif in to..

2006-09-17T17:47:00.000+08:00

bought sum punk rock costumess..was...FUNNNnnn...[=
MRT cheoro fer us still sux..can't get the beat correct...
body not listening to u..

SO??

PRACTISE!!!

fer sum reasons..my heart had been tasting sourness..
a shoutout to FATE : Quit Toying Me..i'm abt to blow..

BACK

2006-09-15T01:34:00.000+08:00

I"M BACK!!!! from PERAKKkkk...

yessss...i'm backk....

w00oooott...3 Dae..2 Nite in pErak..isss SURE NO EASY...i've becum strongerrr..(haf i??)..much more easily contented..and stuffs...

Food had nv been worse than wad i had....
Accomodation leaves me with not too comfy sleeps
activity was...things u probably will NEVER experience in ur Lifee
Transport was...more of a "watch the branches game"

i will elaborate..when i feel like itt..it's late now u noeee...

on the whole...daes and activities in perak...was fun and realli exciting..i noe i complained a lot...threw sum MINI tantrums here and deree..but hey...WASN"T TT BAD K!!!! hehehe

and fer suree..u got to noe each other better...thru the tougher times..haha..it was sorta like army life yea?? hahahaa..or maybe even worse...cuz it's adventurous!! we braved thru waterfalls..climbed up muddy dangerous terrains..got hitch by a leeeech (PooR RiNo..)..conquered cave climbing..and fell thru dangerous jungle paths...cuts..wounds and briuses became a norm dere...it's juz how bad it is..bLeahh..imagine..our life deree..

melaka was of cuz...BETTER..much betterr...more humane..!! ok..i shan't start to complain...hahahha...but i'm glad i went fer this trip..though it realli hasn't been easy..and hey..i've got HELL LOTSA MOSSIEEEe BITESSss.....GAAAa..y do i JUZ HATE THEM??

tHaNks RiNo..fer joining us..and i'm glad u came..i'm sure u were glad u came too!! thankss girL...fer taking care of me sumtimes..and making this trip even more fun!!! hahaha..got to noe this girl better too!! she sure is one tough giRL too!! not easy yeah..?! cHeeRs!!

ANGIEEe!!! this girl has realli realli been SUPER AMAZINGgg...even before we realli started poly...[=..without her..i wun even noe where i'll be noww...my classmate..my super close knitted fren..my colleague...WAD ELSEEE??? hahahaa...thanks fer being dere fer mee..and taking care of me at timess...thanks fer helping and working with me fer all the big big small small thingss!! hehehe...sry fer all the times i've neglected u and all..i still loVE YA!!! and i mean itt!! muackss!!

sPeCiaL tHaNks to XuaN FeNg..this whole trip...5 daes 4 nites..had been awesomee for us..(the rest too laaa) thru thiss..realli took us to a higher lvl i guess...it's amazing..the care he's been showering on me in abundance fer this whole trip..seeing to all my big and lil needs..[=..tHaNKs sweetheart..i'll nv ferget ur goodness..[=..he's sure one tough cHaP toO!! bringing much joy and laughter to this whole trIp..i'm realli glad u enjoyed this trip...and i hope we'll advance from hereee..[=

Joe..willie..justin...lolXx..thanks fer the super heart warming and nice song u wrote fer us..[=..hahaha..it's realli juz..heart warmin to hear...u guys were great tooo...fun and all...[=..

cHaNgEdd..

PERAK

2006-09-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

i'm sry i haf to pon dance (if i haf to pon any..)

i'm OFF TO PERAK!!!!

DUN MISS MEEeee...i noe u will..mUaCkSsZz

to pei yi: I'll MISS YAAA SWEETIEEee....i realli willl..

to minz: dun misss meee...i'll cum back soon..

to sophan: i'm sry..i haf to go..WITHOUT U!! but i'll cum back soon..[=

to Rino: and i got u with uss!!! WHAhahaa...

cHaNGeSss...

2006-09-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

cHaNgEss....happens all the timeee...*cliche topic...* so we shan't touch on tt since u noe wad i'm abt to rant..

adapt or forsake it...

i'll be off to perak in abt a daes time...dun miss meee.....i noe u will...i'll miss u tooo...

tHiNgS Jus aiN't tHe SaMe aNyM0Ree..
aNd sTaY tHiS WaE iF u cHoOsE to..

BYEee....

DIET!!!!!

2006-09-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

worked from 1030 to 1030..yeah..am to pm..

i'm dead and cranky by noww..though i had my fair share of fun..

i promise to be on a diet..from tmr onwards..3 daes de-tox plan..

on veg and fruits onli..i will survive thiss!! i will not get tempted..i promiseee...[=..

quit playing the role of a bitch..

i juz hafta stop

eventfuL

2006-09-06T09:37:00.000+08:00

i've been spending so much..i juz haf to stop!! somebody plzz...help mee...!!

pon work yesterdaeee...haiXx..and i seriously thinks my boss's gonna kill me the nxt hr..!! bLeaHhhh..gonna work til late tonite..so..dun miss mee tt much yet...

long men was expectedly fantastic....town was the usual roam roam..den...snakes on the plane..i swear u'll scream the nxt time u see snake after watching this show..snakess...all sizes..colours and characters..all high on crack..!! lolxx..(wad an idea to make snakes go high..)..den they start going bonkers in the plane..killing and biting anything they can seeee...not recommended fer the weak heart...nah..juz kiddin!! go watch!! it's nicee...but yah..do try to make time fer itt..!!

zouk aft to support our ms 17 evelyn..gorgeous punk girL..lucky her and other contestants..to be ed hardy showered all over..!! bleahHh..official clothing..get it?? so they get dressed up with it!!

makan aft tt....(no..we didn't eat..the rest did...DIET PLZ!!)..den a LONGG WAEEEeee home with ms pei yi..like wad i alwaes love..[=..w/o her..'home-ing''s such a chore and bore..

i dun wanna sit back and see it dying..

i dun wanna go on and watch it grow..

i..

LONG MEN!!

2006-09-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

Me aNd HaaPpIEee Evee...(hEr bdaee!!)
Pretty Nexa aNd Me...both piNk!!

::NeXa..QiaNx-..Eve::

ok..tt's so much of picss...hehe..all taken yesterdae nite in eve the b'dae girl's hsee...her hse iss...wooot...beautifuL...[=

went over to her place after work..juz to realise they were playing mahjong!! bleah...den we slacked..watched abit of TROY..abit of sum chinese hypotism drama.....den slack..in her room..(supposedly girl's talk..)

onli to find the guys playing black jack downstairs..and we joined in one after the other...hahahaa...poor xf...lost like mad..[=..and hey!! i didn't wanna lose ur money k!!

and YAYNESSS!!! LONG MEN finally came truee again!!! haahaha...DIM SUM BUFFET!! and i WUN put on 5KG juz by eating DIM SUMS k!!!!! dun curse mee u jealous freak monster...u're simply...JEALOUS!!!

Love is juz so difficult..

it's fate which is playing us around..

u can't possibly satisfy both..

and u wanna hurt none..

how?

Amor, no es amor

2006-09-02T01:08:00.000+08:00

it juz ain't the same anymore..different air..different atmosphere..different u..different feel..

ciara's item..not easy i guess..

me : isolation sux..!!

we alwaes sae..fer every competition or item..u alwaes pick up sumone as a close fren..and indeed..it was proved rite fer 3 times..this time..ciara's item..i think i've picked her up again..maybe thanks to this item..we'll revert back to how we were..!! hehee..yaa laa..min min laaa...hahahahaa..

went to eat aft tt...cuz this girl complain and complain hungry..den mood swing..den eat full le also mood swing..(weird girl..!! =x )..

i'm juz glad we went fer this supper laa..!! long time no tok to her also!! hehee..

butt..overall..ok laa..yet another daee....

surpressed feelings..surpressed emotions..wad went wrong?!

when u left i lost a part of me..
Who else am I gon' lean on (When times get rough)..
Who's gonna take your place (There ain't nobody better)..
I didn't mean it..

2006-08-31T02:43:00.000+08:00

it's time like this..i miss kai..i wan him back so bad..i can't explain my sorrow..cuz if he's here..i noe he'll nv allow me induldge in my own tears..he alwaes picks me up..

and now i feel crushed..with emotions and all..i feel as though..the whole world is fallin onto my tiny lil shoulders..

it's the third time i teared todae since 10.47 til now..

and it's the dew from the heart..

Forgiveness

2006-08-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

often..it's known that it's almost impossible fer a guy and a girl to be SUPER close..but juz frenz..and again..the word is ALMOST impossible..not impossible...

often..it's seen around ur frens life..around ur life..or even in ur life..but well..haf u ever experienced it??

woke up fer work todaee..sumtimes i love work..sumtimes i juz dread it..sometimes time seems to pass so fast..yet sometimes.. time juz refuse to move on as quickly as it use to be..

ironically..life's like this..sumtimes..u flash back..and u think..'wah..time past so fast hor..so fast..2 mths ..3 mths already..'..and the ans is yes..it's been 1 1/2 yrs fer me in poly..yet..sumtimes u feel..time is so slow..'it's been 2 mths..3 mths..but how can it bee?? so much had happened!! it seems like 2 yrs..'..

fer me..it's the latter..

my life had been hovering like a lost fast speed rocket..thru these yrs..right after my 'O's..i felt my life change..i saw myself grow..i'm no longer the innocent girl..who use to think everything works with a heart of gold..and a genuine self will take u to a non superficial world..but hey..grow up..think..life's not like this..u're not in ur fairytale land..and it's sad..yes..it saddens me..

i'm not like this..i dun wanna be in such a superficial world..where has all the good gone to? and why is human so evil? filled with greed..filled with selfishness..haf they forgotten.. wad selflessness is? haf they forgotten..how to feel other ppl's pain?

i noe i might haf been wrong myself..and i noe sumtimes i dun deserve some frenships..but hey..think back..am i onli one who doesn't deserve ur frenship? haf u ever did sumthing to sumone..who doesn't deserve theirs too? or even mine..but wad's deserving? wad's not? we try..and sumtimes we try too hard..sumtimes..a genuine heart is often greeted by fears and anger lashing furiously at it..can u sense? are u watching this heart bleed? and are u causing it to bleed? now think..if u were this piece of delicate heart..totally defendless..how can anyone bear to do this.? i can't..no matter how much i seem to dislike..or even hate u if u think i do..i'm telling u now..i dun and i nv did..maybe at that split moment of anger i did..but still..it's not with my real heart..no matter how sour things seems btw us..or any of us..i'm telling u..i'm still willing to be a fren..

and sumone juz came over my mind..arieL..this girl..though not super close to me..had touch me in mani ways..thru the tough times..i know she was nv alwaes with me..but at last she saw..and she approached with a genuine heart..and i thank God..she was given to mee..sumhow..i juz feel..this girl's very much like me..sumhow..dere's juz this connection..

sophan..he's been a blessin to me all these times too..though sumtimes u might fail..juz sumtimes..but he's been here..

y do ppl lash out unhappily to others? insecurity?! for another fren..?! judge..and who are we to judge others?! they are wrong..you are wrong..but hey..where's the.."maybe i'm wrong.." if onli..we can embrace in each others warmth..and no one's wrong..everything happens fer a reason..

if sumone meets a car accident and dies..who's fault? the driver? think deeper..could it be God?? His fault? God's fault fer creating him and letting him die..thus causing everyone close to him suffer his death?! y not Thank him..fer creating him..and giving him memories..y not thank him..fer the legacy he's left behind in many ppl's life..his purpose is served..and God is taking him back to reward him..

Kai..my real life example..i lashed out..furiously at him..yet he nv retaliates..no matter how much i detested him and pecked on his helping hand til it drew blood..he nv complains one word..i'm glad i manage to get him back as a fren..and his legacy in my life? Forgiveness...

maybe u've guessed it..yes..sum of u noe..sum dun..kai's this great honourable pal..who passed awae abt a yr back?! he's a fren i met by chance..grew closer..became my best fren's guy..til i detested him and kept refusing him..to a fren i found back..who died..and nv came back..

maybe sum of u hate me now..maybe sum dislike me now..maybe this is the best wae to sae..it's ok..not everyone loves everyone..not everyone likes everyone..no matter how bad u were..or used to be to me..it's ok..juz tell me u still find a fren in me..and i'll be dere..
i admit defeat to fate..it's not popularity i need as u all as frenz..i juz dun wish fer ppl to see me with coloured eyes..it realli saddens me..
a genuine heart..is worth more than hatred..more than urself..
Forgiveness..is the greatest virtue one can get..

and..

The greatest distance btw 2 is the bridge in their heart..

mocking bird

2006-08-30T02:36:00.000+08:00

I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie, I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when youlaugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney, uncle's crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you

it's juz nice..but the lyrics is too long..hahaha...

todae's performance...messy...but still ok..

todae's Song and Dance rehearsal..super fun...got me high..[=

F-R-E-E-D-O-M

2006-08-26T00:31:00.000+08:00

ok..bunny's my actual twin fer twin item...but...i guess i've got a new found self proclaim twin..dunch u juz think...seow ting lookalike factor : 70%?
QiaNx-BuNnY

FREEDOM from the slave of exams..is the w0rd!!! whahaa...WHEeeeeee..it's the dae i've been waiting..who cares abt wad kinda results i'll get...(at least not fer now..but I still CAREEee!!)..it's wad i wanna do..wad i can do noww...

latin shoe's such..fun yet..painfuL!! sum of us are getting blisters already!! i guess it's juz new shoes..and having to do a split with toes pointed sidewaes down is juz so..challenging i would put it!! bLeah...flexibility...it's time to be frenz yah...!!!

went to work aft paper..fer 3 hrs onli!! so lamee ritee..and guess wad..i forgot my pants..so i wore wad i wore..(denim BUM skirt) to work..of cuz..i 'hid' behind the bar..and it's where i'm supposed to be onlI!!! hahahaa...so i kinda LAZEE around work...!! lucky i didn't haf to buy my 3rd pair of BLACK PANTS fer work which is SO USELESS aft all..

smtg..realli nice happened todaee..it's so nice..i'm keepin it to myself!!! hahhaaa..jokes laaa..i juz ate summ realli nicee new zealand icecream.....mint..raspberry..and chocs..triple scoop!!....it's so sweeet...i'm meltin in them..

danced todaee..fer 29th aug performance..towards the end of the daee..juz..didn't feel too good again..

it's stressful to even sense ur presence now..
an end..will we?

FuN Filled with skYee

2006-08-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

the cooks!!! (look at my sweat!!! skyee!!! been slackin haarrrr...)
Left to Right : Kang Kong Mash potato tofu egg with meat and egg
4 dish and 2 happie girLs
Steal of the daee : SAMBAL FISH!!!
and...this is wad u get...when u get 2 bored girls..sick and tired of studyingg...hungry and needs to distress..!! we whipped up our own lunch and dinner!! woohOoo..and we ate with..so much...love..and accomplishment!! and...we're realli 2 super happie girls...ok...dun u juz wish u were here with uss?? and she treated mee ROYCE die hard for chocs..!! as she claims..melts in ur mouth!!! hahaha...it's realli..not bad laa..!! ok..it's NICEEEe and YUMMY..

and u juz haf to believe mee...skye's hse..is FULL OF CHOCOLATES!! EVERYWHERE U GO..EVERY fridge u open....btw..she has 2 fridge..1 freezer..and everyone has chocolates all over..!!! go her hse...and u'll SIN...but..dunch u juz feel happie living with all those chocolates?? whahahaa..ok..i'm indulgin...

but we did study...realli...we didd..haha..we tried dancing too!! hahahaa...ok..tt's wad happens when u get 2 or more nra peeps together..u start dancing....and yeah...so i should be mugging noww...

but but buttt..i still haf my durian cravings!!! bLEaHhhhh...

but..i'm eating watermelon noww.......(with plum powder..YUMMMM!!)

ok..i'm super happieee todaeee...but i realli need to MUG...last dae...bear with mee...BYEEEeee...

i'm sry..i can't gif u wad u deserve..

wronged

2006-08-23T02:30:00.000+08:00

I get it..totally...

iR0NY

2006-08-23T00:40:00.000+08:00

being complacent is nv the best feeling u wanna feel esp after getting thrown right down to the pit hole by it..it juz explains..how so SUPER 'WELL' i did for my DEL paper todaee...totally able to comprehend the questions and totally being able to solve them..!! yeap..this sux!!

aft all the WOW feeling of DEL paper and sum key stuffs to settlee..FINALLY headed for studio..*and POOR sengkiat..(sry boi..i mean itt...) had been waiting and roaming in town while waiting for us..dun we juzz...feel amaze by his patience lvl?? *cLaPSSssS*...*..finally learnt the so difficult as it may seem (but chio) Get Up Cheoro from xf..and ain't he juz happie to haf 3 so bright students!! (bunny..me..and bert)..HeehEee..Nicee!! and...sense of acheivement!! andd..hahaa..i've got myself a nice cute twin!! hahaha..we almost got the same jersey like thing from pure milk!!..was nice laa..juz tt no sizeee...

nono..dun be decieved by my activity..i still gotta paper to slog on for FRI!!

::L-O-V-E::
I've losy my way..
And it's not too long before you point it out..
I've learned the hard way..
To never let it get that far..
Because of you..
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you..
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you..
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you..
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you..
I get afraid..

sLaVee FeR u..

2006-08-21T11:59:00.000+08:00

hahaa...FirSt PaPeRR!!!!!!!!!!

bLeaHHh..tHaNks FeR uR LucK ppL!!! hEhehee...

will cum in super usefuL....

i juz wish...the memory fairy's with meeeee....to refresh my memory!!!

my misses...U...

LUCKIESss DudeSs..!!

fotoSsss

2006-08-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

ok...and noWww...fer suMM...foto SESSIONS!!!!

the craBss!! and the crapsTeRSss!!

RaNd0M

2006-08-18T13:36:00.000+08:00

everytiMee it HaPpeNs..u'Re aLwaes aR0uNd for suM ReaS0N..and everytime i feel closer to u..it hurts..

No 0Ne likes living in Regrets..
now think back..
....
....
have u ever done sumthing u nv wanted to..or wasn't ready to? but still u did it..in a rush..or with a anxious heart..cuz at tt timee..u didn't noe wad u wanted..u had a weak mind..a weak heart..so u juz went ahead blindly...

sooN..u realise u were wrong..but u felt it's too late..u had already done it..
...
in ur mind..u wish u had the power to go thru time..and change wad u nv wanted to..
but den again..how mani wrong decisoins haf u made in ur life?!

wHen u chose to 'betray' ur fren at folly time of anger..
when u chose to backstab ur colleagues at tt time of sourness..
when u chose to fall for sumone else behind her back..
when u chose to forgo a good frenship..
or when u chose to juz keep hurting sumone u nv wanted to..

sum..may not be in the list...but..deep down in ur heart..u noe of sumthing u've regretted doiN..or not doing..

u can liee..u can hide..but u can't possibly try and fake ur own heart...

which will u choose..? to do sumthing and regret doing it...or nv to do it and regret not trying it..?

...
...
...

We'll alwaes sae...i wish i kneww thiss..i wish i knew tt..but if u knew everything..does tt time u wun make the wrong decision again??

ok...we're getting all em0..

haahaaa...

ppL wHoM i wisH to LoVee..i juz keep huRting them..

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?

-For wadeva reason..i feel like i've been-

2006-08-17T15:41:00.000+08:00

for sum reason...my heart had been flutteringgg..with exams around the corner...i'm not exactly AFRAIDddd of exams....but...dunch ur heart juz flutter and kinda dislIkee theemmm?? eeeKSs!!

for sum reason..i can't wait til after eexamsss...

studied in sch with joanna..bert and xf in the seriously..oveRCROWDing LIbary..or izzit juz the serious lack of space and land?? (wonderss..)

andd..it's proven to be quite productiVEee for isolatin in a single table for all..[=..

so...i shall go back to study..and blog up more toniteee...

and for sum reason..i'm looking forward to the nxt hr...and the nxt...and the nxt...tiL..

LoVeee

::BLiSs::

2006-08-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

...i so have to agree with song tiang and Pui Yi's bLog man...oooPSss...seow ting and peiyi laa..!!! hehehe

they areee suchhh fUNNnn ppL!!! hEhh HEeHh...juz tt..yeah..everything has a price to pay!! hahaha...i've been nagged tooo pei yi love!!! hehehee...

on the 12th..we went to chill aft work and such..haha..til 1am++ reached home at 2++ hehee...bleah..even argued with my mum cuz of late timing!!! bleaHhh!! but it was so fun..with 8 ppL stucked and packed like sardine in the car driving round and round orchard!!!! blEAHhh....oh...and with so mani cisco patroL!!!! whahhaahahahaha!!! ok..notti uss..!!! hehehe

on the 13th..the same grp of ppL...(not all though)..met uP..at suntec..supposedly to watch WCG dance comp..(but we missed it)..and ended up sLaCkiNg...den we decided to go KbOx..!!! woooHooo..i'm telling yaaa...song tiang's voice issss....GODIVA's godivaa...!!!! whahahaa...when u're sad..and wanna cry dun wanna cry tt kind...plz gif her a call and make her sing...100% chop u will tear...SUPER NICEE LAAaa...pei yi also!!! near lee!!! gonna attain the light of singing sooN!!! heeheee..BUTtt...we got home at 1am++ again!!! another late nite..!!! and poor panic pei yi!!! hehehehee...

yesterdaee...MET THEM AGAIN!!!!!! in sch...haha...went to dye hair with rino rhino drink milo...(see her dope purple and blue hair!!)..den met late queen pei yi and xUaNFeNg..den we cabbed to sch to reaslise that they've ended the meeting!! hehehee...den we went westmall fer lunch and such!!!!!!...coOOoLLLL man...see them again!!! I LOVE THEMMM....!!!!!!!

and pei yi is HUGGING ME NOWWW....!!!!!!!!! hahaha..dun jealOuss!! HEeheEe..and bert juz bought us donut!!!!!!!! hehehe..NICE HORRR!!! heheehhee....

and todaee....we MET AGAIN!!!!! to study at westcoasttt!!!!!! and we're here noww...hehehheee...[=

k laaaa
love them loves..MUACKSsssXXXXZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tRaNsPaReNcy pLz

2006-08-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

FiRsTLy....i gotta annonuce this SUPER DUPER GOOOOOOODDdd NeWSss!!!!

I haf NO SCH on TUES-WED-THURS....hehehe....i noe u're jealouss..BLEAH..=p..

other than this...

went to sch..as usuall..SUPER SLEEPY HEADED for 8am's lesson..and it ended at 10..had an hr break..headed for second lesson at 11 (to find that dere's no lesson!!)..den we tried all ways to push awae the 3pm's tutorial..(and we succeeded..) Yay!!...and....yeah..pOOff...we went fer lunch at SIM den to mug for DEL in the lib til abt 4+...

dEenNNnn...aNgIEee aNd i went to see the contact lens thingY...and i bought the aRqUa bLUe 0Nee...HEeehEeXxx..thanks LiYaNa aNd aNgIEee fOr HeLpiNg Meee oUtt...!!! hehehe

w0rK haD BeeN tiRiNg bUt aWeSoMee..and i can't believe Jason's new post which he didn't wanna tell mee til he gets his namecard!!! hahaa..guess wad's the post..!!! hMMmmmm...u'llnv guess it..hahaha..so..let me reveal it..

it's call theeee....

theeeee.......

.....

"FUN MANAGER!!!"

so DURRrrrr RIteeeee!!!!! WU LIAO!!!!! it's on his namecard...wad kinda promotion is that man...!!!! from team manager to FUN manager..crazy boss....crazy company!! hahahaaa..but i simply adore itt!!! hehehe..

::YeSteRDaEee::

MeT uP wIth [tMk-] YesTeRDaEee....so together..we're [Q]tMk-!!! (LoVess)
hehee..QianX-.TraCy-.Med-.KiM...hEeehEeee..sEeIng tHeM iSs SimPly aWeS0Me!!! aNd We aLmoSt didn't MEeT!! hehehee..i guess we've all moved on with our lives..and honestly..hope to meet more often man..we've been drifting..agreee girLss??? hehehee...[=

aLrIteeee..LoNg UpDaTee RitEee!! hEehEee..tiL i uPdaTee agaiN..Bye f0lKss..

RaNd0M

2006-08-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

HaaHAaa..this week..had been kinda eventFuL...dance..work..sch..and the Heart fearing EXAMSssss are nearriiinnnngggg.........gRrrrrr

Omggg...OmGgg......(Old Mother Goose)....*rUNNSsss*..and it means..i'll have to study...plz make sure i do..if not..

SCOLD MEeee plzz...

i haf to make suree..i stop thinking abt dance....

i haf to make suree..i stop working so much...

i haf to make sure all my assignments are completed....

HeeehEee..i'll see to that..bah..

meanwhiLeee...i can't wait....for exams to be over sooN....

and i'm FREeee........FREeee

FREEEEEEEeeee ...FREEEEEeeeeee

WWWEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......!!!!!!!!

hEeehEeee...can't wait Lar..but meanwhile...plz study hard ppL...dun miss me thru this MIA time k...heeehEeee..i lOVEee u gUYSss...MuaCKsXx..[=

[=

2006-08-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

life had been great so farr!! hahaha.......so...yeah!!! hehehehehehe

tRusT

2006-07-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

easy as it may seem to be..

difficult it is to comprehend..

i tried..i learnt..

but still i can't..

will u ever break sumone elses trust for u?

will u ever..be unfaithful to me..?

::uNFaiThFuL::a ReaS0n wHy::

2006-07-19T08:42:00.000+08:00

like wad Minz said in her blog...when u listen to songs..and when the cheoro complements it...sumtimesss...u feel itt...izzit because the dancer's good? and he/she is able to bring out the feel?..u like the song cuz it's popular?..or izzit because the lyrics of the song juz speak to u..

production is nearing..and i dun seem to find any reason to be happiee..(dun ask me y..)..sum songs i hear..feels like it's killing me softly inside..i guess i noe the reason y..

sumtimes it's agonising...cuz it feels like the lyrics is speaking rudely into my face..yet sumtimes i juz noee..that i haf to overcome it..sumhoww..but..how??

but is this the reason y..i dread to step into the studio?..i dread the kinda heavy feeling..i dread to see ppl dancing..i dread to hear the songs..i dread the feel of the surroundings..

and yaa..i dunnoe is this gonna last..i dunnoe how long i can take thiss...my emotions are all mixed and messed up in my head..and my brain's juz not workin with my heart...sumtimes i juz dun feel it anymore..and when i do..it's almost alwaes negativee for u...

stop telling mee i'm thinking too much..stop telling me u do..when i can still see and feel..while others can sense too..

things i wanna do..i can't..the outcome i wan it to bee..i can't bring myself to..am i realli happiee?? sumtimes i wunder..and sumone plz get me outta this..

wad do i realli wan? wad if i sae..i'm starting to seek comfort sumwhere else besides ur heart..everytime i feel it..it's like u're pushing me to find shelter sumwhere else..and it's where i kinda feel happier sumhow..and this whole thing...is juz not fair to anyone..not u..not me..not anyone else..

wad if for every hr u love sumone...u feel a day's pain..will u still choose to love with a dying heart?

I'Ve BeeN TaGGed

2006-07-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

I'Ve BeeN TaGGeD!!!

By LiM sHi MiN

Rules

1. Do the following WITHOUT complaints

2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours

3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged

4.Start your post with a "I've been tagged" then do this...

Favourites

favourite colour: oRaNgEe?

favourite food: bReaD (eSp DoNuTs!! [=)/ WeSterN/JaP

favorite song(s): RnB/sLoW s0NgSs (aCtUaLLi aLoT La)

favourite movie: TiTaNiC..MeteOr GaRdEn..MvP..WhAaHaa

favourite sport: DaNCe

favourite day of the week: SaTuRdaEe

favourite season: aUtUM

favourite ice-cream: PePpeRMiNt? (aS LoNg aS it'S ICEeee CREAMM!!)

Currents

current mood: DeTeRMiNeD

current taste: SwEeT

current clothes: sPaGhEtti ToP / sHoRtS

current toenail: MaR00N

current time: 11.58pM

current surroundings: WaD a RooM sHouLd HaF..

annoyances: NoNee..

current thoughts: wHeN Is ThEe NxT TiMe i'll Be FrEee? HeEeXx..

First

First best friends: NuRsErY BaH..

first crush: Primary sch..still rememeber his naMee..GaNg HaO..bLeaH

first movie: WAH..how i can remember siaXx

first lie: hMmmm..how i nOEee..!!! hehehe

Lasts

last cigarette: bLeaH..HoNesTy..last mth? (but i nv touch lee..)

last drink(alcohol): orange vodka i think..

last car ride: xUaN FeNg's CaR todaee..

last crush: CRUSH onli hOrr?? few mths back bah..

last movie: Take tHe LEaD

last phone call: JUXx..(11.50pM?)

last CD played: TaKe tHe LeaD aLbuM (DaNce cLaSs)

Have you ever

have you ever dated your best friend: NoPe

have you ever broken the law: Yes

have you ever been arrested: No

have you ever skinny dipped: NoPEe

have you ever been on tv: yEaP

have you ever kissed someone you don't know: Of CuZ NoT!!

5 things you are wearing: BaNgLe-EaR RiNg-aNkLeT-cLotHeSs-RiNg

4 things you've done today: StUdY-EaT-DaNcEe-JoG

3 things you can hear right now: SoNgs FrOm My CoMp-FaN-CaR dRiViNg S0uNd..

1 thing you do when you're bored: ReaD MaGaZiNe aNd sT0Nee..

Next 5 candidates: aNgIee..MeDeLiNee..EveLyN..SkYee..JeNyiNg..

::bE With0Ut U::

2006-07-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

Anybody who has ever loved, ya know just what I feel

Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it

I got a question for ya

See I already know the answer

But still I wanna ask you

Would you lie? (no)

Make me cry? (no)

Do something behind my back and then try to cover it up?

Well, neither would I, baby..

See this is real talk

i'm always stay (no matter what)

Good or bad (thick and thin)

Right or wrong (all day everyday)

Now if you're down on love or don't believe

This ain't for you (no, this ain't for you)

And if you got it deep in your heart

And deep down you know that it's true (come on, come on, comeon)

Well, let me see..

We've been...Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)

And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleepwithout you baby)..

Not everything with it...Nothing without it..

2006-07-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

hMmmmm...what do u think of..when i sae...Not everything with it..Nothing without it....?? hMmmmm...ok...it's the world Cup Period....And i guess...sum of u Bet.....and yeah...i noe u all noee...i do toooo...but it's not bad eh...nth good or bad laa..juz..another form of excitement when u actualli bet...it's takes u into another world of whirl and twirL....

if u guessed Money..u're rite...Money's sum kinda earthly material possessions...when u haf it...it's not like u can get everything...(cliche rite..)...but when u dun haf itt..it's gonna be difficult....so in life..are u a slave to cash??

u study..and study...fought so hard to get a place in Uni...get doc..so?! all fer money...? or is it ur thirst fer knowledge?? (dun lie..i noe it's not..)...hahaa...u juz wanna secure a good job..and earn as much..and live a life of luxury..

but den again...wad's a life of luxury?? fer sum...it's wad u haf...big hse..cars..credit cards...unlimited cash...but it's all abt URSELF..ur family..

to others..a life of luxury may be giving..loving and caring.. to those who needs it moree..this wae...life becums meaningfuL...and ur life is richer..

so nxt timee..think...dun start assuming and blaming..dun even arguee...giving and forgiving..is life's 2 greatest virtues.....so......yeap......(nxt time i do smtg wrong...plz forgive mee...hehehe...).

ok laaa...back to the money issuee...juzz...DUN BET TOO MUCH!!! hope u guys win..hehehe..[=

why?

2006-07-02T18:34:00.000+08:00

Wonders and thots..

thots and wonders..

u wanna noe..
they wanna noe..
i wanna noe..

but wad exactly do we all noee..

wad exactly do we all wan..

foolish as it might seem..
stupid as it may be

sumtimes in life..u see no end to the road u're heading..
yet u're still walking in..til u reach complete darkness..

it's when u start to panic..cuz u can't see anymoree..
and u're all alonee..u haf no one to rely on..

sumtimes in life...there are certain things u're unsure of..yet u juz go ahead and do it...worse still..when u dunnoe if it's wrong..and u juz went ahead..taking a risk..

wad exactly do we wan?
wad exactly do i wan?

2006-06-30T01:08:00.000+08:00

MOVED ON

oVeR aNd D0Ne WitH

2006-06-28T02:20:00.000+08:00

FiNally...everything seems to be over...
though i noe it's not..
or at least..i've successfully thrown everything behind my brain..
yaa rite..if onli i could..
Now i dun caree...
cuz i gave up on u..
...
...
and i repeat..I DUN CAREE
Cuz i had enuff
i dun give a shit..
so stop acting like u guys care DAMN A LOTT abt this whole situation..
to wad u haf to sae
so juz keep ur comments to urself bitches
it's not gonna change my life in anywae
not anymore
i chose my path..
and i chose it myself..so y should u even bother?
so juz let me live with it
before i blow my top at u

and screw ur Life up as bad as mine..

Love me or Hate mee..

I DISLIKE U...

No MoRe

2006-06-23T05:44:00.000+08:00

eXpLaiN No MoRe

which road?

2006-06-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

would u choose to assume and believe..or approach and understand?!

Immortals :

anger
disappointment
sad
frustration
hate
dislike
abhor

Mortals :

sad
lost
struggles
yearns
sorry
disappointed
lousy
hurt
thankful

-struggling in a sea of no return-

SaTisFiEd

2006-06-03T14:05:00.000+08:00

can't believe itt...we made it to 2nd runner up...which we (FuNk'S0uLz)...realli did not expect..our goal was to get into finals..and we did..from den on..we said we juz wanted to haf fun..and treat it like a performance...since we tot we wun make it top 3 anywaee....and i guess..it's truee..when u haf fun..and dance without stresss and get rewarded..it feels better than u're dere all out to win...

so mani things had happened..and i hasn't been blogging...hehehee...cuzz...life had been hectic..the stones in my heart are releasing one by onee....now it's common test....aft common test...it'll be camp...aft camp...HOHOHO!!! i'm FREE AGAIN!!! den i can finallly go GENTING WITH ALL MY DEARSs.....hehheehheheehe...i'm so happiee..and soooooo looking forward to tt.....i'm glad compeititions are over...and i dun think i'll get involved in another one til production's over!! hehehee..[=...

hMmmm...sry ppl...if i've been like neglecting u guys over the past periods...i felt tt i've neglected mani stuffs!!! heheheh...bleah..k laa..oFF TO WORK!! see ya guyss..mauckssss

HAPPIE 21st BDAE TO MIN MIN!!!!

2006-05-26T01:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE BURFDAEEEEE MIN MIN!!!

hope u had fun!!! hehee..LoVEe yaa..muackss

will update abt todae again..hahaa...[=

it's Sn0winNg

2006-05-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

LiFeee...as usuaL...passes damn fast.....hMmmmm..i'm considered happiee still bah!! hehehee...i'm a happie girLL!!!

HAPPIE BELATED BDAEEE TO JJ AND XUAN FENG!!!

HAPPIE ADVANCE BURDAE TO LIM SHI MIN!!!!!!!!!!

MagicaL

2006-05-18T15:17:00.000+08:00

It's so sweet...fer everyoneeee..[=

Your lips, your eyes, your soul
Are like a work of art,
The most creative thing of all
Is your beautiful heart.

If you were a painting,
No colours could express
The beauty deep inside you,
A rainbow, nothing less.

If you were a sculpture
The clay could hardly make
Your figure of an angel
Without one mistake.

If you were a euphony
No choir could really sing
All the beautiful music
Your eyes could possibly bring.

So here I am, an artist,
With inspiration beyond belief
But to capture such rare beauty,
I'd have to be a thief.

tHe ReaL w0rLd

2006-05-15T10:45:00.000+08:00

honestly...wad's teh reaL world like out dere?? a man eat man world?! if u're too nice..ppL devour u..

honestly..i felt my change..major change..maybe i'm no longer tt sheltered anymore..and i'll haf to step out of the world of innocence ..i see it..or maybe i'm just beginning to see it..defendless..tt's wad sum ppL feel..things i nv ever thot would haf happened in real life...happened..characters and situtations which i tot onli exist in drama...exist!!

so..nth is impossible...and it shoots back at mankind rudely...but....it's not affecting me anywae laa..bLeaH!! juz saying tt..all kinda ppl exist in this world..and things u nv thot will happen in real life...do happen!! so..BEWAREEee!!!

hehehee...ok...as promisedd...

we went JB...we [MiN..RiNo..Sk..Me..JOE] shop and shop...til crazy..had much fun in shopping centres..joe's hse..joe's car..kenny rogers...heehheehee.....it's simply..inexplicable joy we all feel man...[=..hehehe...aNd my poor MiN was sIcK!!! bleaHhh..sick gaL....hope u're feeling better noww girL!! hahaa..

nxt trip..GENTING IN JUNEE!!!

aNddd....SG hiphop championship semi's @ tiong bahru plaza this cuming sat...[= *eXciTeDd*

sUpeRCaLifRagiLisTiCeXpiaLiDociOuS!!!

2006-05-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

JB IS SO MUCH FUNN!!!! LOVE ITT!!! HEHEHEHEEe....

will blog more tmr!!

i'm dead tiredd!! hehehe..

Updateee

2006-05-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

ok...update on DoN's comp...i guess...we're doing finee..but maybe not well..cuz it's not fully done yet....but i hope and wish teh best fer everyone!!! 7th Remedy..Rough Cut..Funk S0uLz..aNd..the locking grP!! [=...Let's all get into Semi's together!!!

hMmmmm..yeap..and i realise..our dear aRieLx.C had been MissiN FeR sUm tIMeee!! MiSss seeing ya arOuNd girL!! [=..

[=

2006-05-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

ok..it's been a long timee...since i last blogged...hehe

NRA audition's..finally overr...yeapSs..interesting..to see the different candidatess...nxt now..is Don's comp...hafta get thru it firstt...

den..nxt is settle all my work stuffss..hehee..

den..MDE stuffs...

den..camp stuffss...

hahahaa...a lot horrr..help me remember and remind mee..thankss!! hehehehehee

aNdd...freshies came in lee..they are nice and fun...[=..

butt..i still better...hehehee...[=

i'm..still a happie but stress girL!! anywae..

i'm tired..and i'm thirsty..

and sch is so boringg..i tink i'm gonna do quite badly fer this sem!!! sumbody kill me plzz...

andd..i kinda feel tt my life is in a mess actualli...seriously...honestly..in a big big mess...i dunnoe wad's been going wrong..wad hasn't been going ritee...it's so messy..EVERYTHING IS JUMBLED UP!!! Howww?? sumbody shoot me in the head plzz....

bLeaHhh....fReNz..wOrk..sCh..DaNcee..comp..ProJeCts..ReSpoNsIbiLiTiess..when will all these ever end mann..!!

::My LiFEe::

2006-05-02T03:39:00.000+08:00

MDE FOC 2006 / ANGELA's BDAEEee

2006-04-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Gawd..i'm finally back..and guess wadd...

i totally didn't regret going fer this camp..i will regret if i didn't go man...seriously..i put my life in it..it was so great...so fun..simply awsomee...it made me go outta my box of usual work..dance..sch..and experience a whole new world outside mine...

Friendships made among all the SLs were worth more than anything tt's more valuable..Bonding with the freshies were also not sumthing u can buy nor exchange with..how i wish..it neva will end..and the thing was..it ended too soon...=`[..everyone was so sad to go..

from being clean..to breaking the icee..to eating together..to luffters..to shameful acts together..to brain cracking..to sweatingg..to getting all dirty and muddy with butter and oil all over us..to finally clean again!!! all these..were experiences i kinda nv felt so much beforee..hopefully dere's more nxt timee..now it's time to consider the china trip...dunnoe wanna go nots..hehehe..[=..

i'm juz too happpieee...thanks everyonee who made the camp possible!!

and also..not fergettingg..HAPPIEE 19th BURTHDAE MY GIRL!!!!

wad am i doing

2006-04-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

hMmmm...Nth worth mentioning to be updated actualli.....sch had started..but not with a good start...first lecture..sleep..bLeAhh.

IS klass...woooHOooo...not too bad...good lecturer..i like him..with my noisy 5 guys..(who kinda thinks they own the whole klass)...and mouse!! same IS as mee!! hehehe..cooL huH...hUUrr hURrr...[=..

aNdd...i'll update tmrr....hehehee...NitEZzz...BYeeeBYHEeeee..

sry if i've been neglecting aNyoNe..it's not all abt danceee in my lifee..it's abt how i prioritise everything..and i hasn't been good at it...sry....

-=bukit batok performancee=-

2006-04-23T01:18:00.000+08:00

todae's performance was so goodd.!!! not becuz we were pro todae..but becausee..i sense teamwork..i sense joy in everyonee..!!! we helped each other make up..style hair..and help make each other look bestt..[=..it's sumthing not everyone will get to experience maybee....the joys..the luffters..and the craziness in uss!! hehee...

todae was juz so cooL laaa..simply love this 7 ppl + me!! hehe..so it's 8 of uss.!! kinda sure we put up quite a good showw!! hehehe...and the best thing..we all had fun man...[=....yeap...so..tt's the most impt thing!!! hehehee...from training stepss..to training expressions and all!! hehehhee...funny processs!!! i like them!!!

min rino and ann camee...the rest..went fer levis i guess...heard they did well..great job guyss..for those who didn't make it thru..nth to despair abt k..keep smilingg..[=

great job guYss!! MuaCkSss...and i love all the hairdo and exotic make up!! hehehe..of cuz all the glittery eye..we felt a divaa..didn't wee...whahahahhaaa....[=

2006-04-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

congrats to all levi's team!!!! hehehee..[=

met sum small situation while going homee..

a picture saes a thousand words!! - edited by Minz tt bo liao bummer

2006-04-15T02:11:00.000+08:00

LoVe?

2006-04-13T01:37:00.000+08:00

ok..let me announce!!! i juz finished..DEVIL BESIDE YOU!!! hehehehe..it's..not too bad a show..worth catching..!! butt..like min saee..plz smack me with reality...in real lifee..this kinda lovee..dun exist..this kinda guy..dun exist...

but..makes me reflect..am i mundane to love? or am i numb?! not interested? or choose not to be?? or he juzz..haven cumm?? i wun search..cuz i noe..he's dere sumwhereee...while i'm heree...we'll meet..one daeee...hMmmmm...kk...smack mee plzz.....*soberrr*.....

butt..is this kinda love everyone is lookin fer?? i dunnoeee....lovee...wad's loveee?? but sumtimess..y can't i ...juzz..loveeee sumone with all my heart...fer a yr...fer a few yrs...fer a decadeee...my heart...juz can'tt..andd unrequiited lovee..it's everywheree..

it hasn't been easy..fer me to fall fer him at first sight..but..he had proved me wrongg...i dun love him...aft all..and i'm sure of tt..i dun..anywae..it's past..and i shouldn't be sad over it ever again..[=..my blessings..is given to her...[=...

aiyah...love and loveee....wad's love man..most ppl think they lovee..but maybe it's nott.....

-DyiNg-

2006-04-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

watched more devil beside you yesterdaee...hMMmmmm..nice!!! not tt superb bah...but it's not tt bad..[=..everytime i watch this kinda showw...hMmmm...i'll probably look like a love lorn giRL watchin..and smiling at every scene...blEaHH!! and of cuzz..sum parts of the show..will hit u..and set u in deep thoughts...dunnoe laaa...everytime i watch this kinda showw..i'll get butterflies all over my heart...quite dumb!! hehehee.....

wad will happen..if u dreamt u died..and u saw ur aft lifee...according to min and rino..when u dreamt tt sumone died..tt person will live longer..so it's a good thing actualli...[=..but..it also means tt an ordeal in is in the waee..but u will overcum itt...[=

so i dreamt i died yesterdaee..but not onli mee...it's me..min and rino!!! we....yeah..'died' togehterr..can't remember howw..and aft we died..how our souls had to 'register' in a world of third dimension...all de waee...til i was going to be reincarnated..hMmmmm...weird to meee...but..nth tt scary..i wunder...wad is gonna happen soon...

-sMiLe-

over?

2006-04-10T00:58:00.000+08:00

hMmm..todaeeee...aft work...went to meet min and rino...den slack..and eat...and luff our wae homeee...hahaha...they...funny ppL....met sk they all at esplanade tooo!! they got hollaback training...yeap...

blEaHhh...had fun at citylink todaeee..!!! hahaahaha...i meant work la dUrrr...[=...maybe it's benny..he's super funny and niceee...work is such a joy with him around..though he's damn lameee..[=..hehhee..

andd...did i mention...since i'm back from my genting trip..i tot over..and..i think he's not the one fer mee..

BACKKKk

2006-04-08T00:29:00.000+08:00

Ok...stop wunderingg.....

stop assumminggg.....

Stopppp......stooppppp

i noe u guys haf been waitingg..and visitin...andd waiting...to see sum changes in my BLOGgg.......

anddd....YESSSs...

I"M BACKK!!!!!!!!!!! nO DOUBTTtt........u're not dreamingg.....hehehee.....[=..

I MISSSSSSSS WHO I MISSESSSsss.........sooooo...tmr...i'll get back to u all one by oneee......fer nowww....let me rest plzzz.....i think i'm suffering from bus-lag.....8hrs of bus ridee..is no jokeeeeeee......hehehhee.....I"M BACK....YESH I AMMMM!!! HEHEHehhee

...gEntiNg...

2006-04-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

ok..i'm 0ff to GeNtiNg..WiLL bE BaCk oN FrIDaEe...so..dun miss me too much..but i'll mISs u GUyss!! hehehe..

manage to catch up with Min MiN anDd RiNo tODaee..Cuzz MIN KEPT CALLING MEEEeee!!! ididott..hahaa..so i DRAGGEDDdd myself outta bed to meet her at 9+pm at JP..chatted til 11 bah!! hehehee...

seriously..gonna miss them man!! andd they very mean..they wanna do EVERYTHING W/O MEeeee....HUMMMPHHH..dun like u all!!! hahaha..stay in this HOT and WARM country den!! while i'm in a cool nice placee...hahaa...bleah..jokes laa...

hMmm..Min Min...RiNo..muz take caree kk..plz writee diarY!!! hahaha..so tt i noe wad's happening to u guys everydaeee yaa..hehehe..muz update mee when i cum back k!!! hehehehe...aRGhh..HOWW??? i'll miss u all..and miss dancee...1 wk lehh!! so longg..we used to like..see each other almost everydaeee laa...u guys are like my daily dosage of energy and happinesss..hahahaa....1 wk...i'll probably...dehydrate outta them and diee deree...hehhehehee.....bleah....k laa..ltr u all high..so i shouldn't praise u all too much lee..can see u all getting proudd!! hahahaha..bLEaHh!!!

aRieL..SK..u all also muz take care k....sKYEe..oRaNgeee..sWee cHeNg..aNgIEee..Jocc...gary...and OtHErS aLsO aRhH!!..muz be happie kk...hehehe...i cum back leee..den tok moree..hehehehheeee...will miss u all also.!!! hehehe...[=..

k laa..i'm oFf LEeeee...so sad hORr!! hehehe..but..aiyah...1 wk onli laa..sae til like i'll nv cum back like tt...but i already feeling sadd....imagine if sumoneee haf to go fer a yr..or worse still...gone fer super super long...how arh...i'll sad til dieee man...hehehe...[=

i'm OFF!!! WILL MISS U GUYSSS!!! TIL I CUM BACKKKkkkk.......

-to be continued-

StReEt FuSioN

2006-04-01T00:27:00.002+08:00

i'm still surving...

Genting from mon to fri...

dun jeaouss....

and...i'll miss nra....
miss work...
miss my frenzz..

hehee.....

dun miss meeee

GOOD LUCK SENG KIAT..CHAOZ..ANAN..XIN XIAN..XUEJING..and others!!!

GO ::StReEt FUSION::..[=

bLeSseD t0 HaF you gUYs

2006-03-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

yesterdaee..

realli had so much fun..it's a pity..min..u couldn't join uss..yen also..ariel also..

went ice skating with rino..sk..and chao..we had our fair share of fun and luffter..all the wae..we're luffing at each other..luffing at other ppL (esp tt jersey guy)..and juz sensing the sweet get together..though it's juz the 4 of us..it wasn't boring at all..sk was nicee enuff..to bring me round and round a few times speeding..(cuz i couldn't go as fast myself laaa)..and..yeah..it was exciting..the speed..the cold wind which blew across my face..and the sharp turns..!! wooT!! EXCITING!!!

RiNo and i..obviously can't skate fer nuts...but we did pick up a little BASIC skill!! hehee..and we managed to avoid ALMOST ALL of tt wicked chao's plot to try and make us fall down..tt mean ass..!! it's realli quite nicee..to be in the middle of the rink..listening to songs like "FeNg" and all..with the cold ambience..with your real good pal..and others..it's simply awesome!! and i believe..these are the memories..which will be etched in my memory...sumhoww..the skating rink seem to mean sumthing to me..i juz..like being there..happie or sad..

it alwaes gives me fond memories..and kinda calm me down when i'm not feeling too good..[=..aft skating..we actualli plan to go bugis see cap..but it's a bit late lee..cuz the guys had hollaback training at esplanade..so we went cityhall with them..saw their dance while me and rino chat and flashback..hehee..[=..

aft their training ending..we all went lau pat sat fer supper with them and MF peeps..they were..realli nice ppL..funny and all..[=..like theM!! hehee..

todaee..

i was sick enuff..i couldn't climb outta bed at all..tt's y..i missed work..in my ENTIRE ONE YR!!! my first timee..to pon work..cuz i realli realli drag myself out at all..

at last i did..but i felt faint aft sum time..so..i realise..i can't go fer dance as well..in the end..went to see doc with mum..so mani medicines..it's killing me too..i can't swallow tablets!!!! Eeeeeeek...mum almost postponed Genting trip..it's still not confirmed..actualli it was..but cuz i'm sick noww..and the fact tt i will feel faint..cuzz..juz noww..i felt so faint..it's the same incident when i was in the lift with my dad and stella..i saw white vision..and i fainted..so todaee..it's almost the same..but i didn't faint laa..cuz my mum was holding me too!! bleah!!

realli feel so badd...can't work fer jason..and i've got 4 daes MC!!! ARGH..i dun like itt..i dun wan it..4 DAES! madness...maybe it's over exhaustion..over too long a period of timee..haven haf a good good rest..and maybe i should make use of this time now to rest..but y do i..wan to go back and work tmr?? hahhaa..i think i might..and i think i will!! bleah..i juz scared..my mummy scoldd...hehehe..

Rino: thanks fer ur concern babee..!! thanks fer cuming all the wae to my hse..juz to find out tt i'm out to see doc..realli sry abt tt..but..realli girL..thanks fer everything..to be dere..to share all my joy and sadness..and be even dere when i'm sick..i'm realli kinda touch in a wae..i thank God fer angels like u sent to me..u juz feel so reaL to me in my poly life..like the kinda fren i'll keep fer the nxt 10 yrs..20 yrs..and counting..action speaks louder than words bah..but..million of words tt i'll wanna sae to u..it's in this BIG THANK YOU..fer everything u did..[=

Minz too..thanks fer teaching and guiding me along dance and all..and being dere when i'm upset..i realli appreciate the little things u did!! like the key chain and all!!! thanks too miN!!

of cuzz..others like Ariel..becca..sk and all...(too mani to mention)..fer guiding me along dance..along Nra..or juz even dere to utter a word of concern..u guys are the memories which i will take with me too.!!

BAD DAEe

2006-03-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

i....DO NOT NEED...ur sarcastic comments at the wrong timee..

u think it's fun...

EVERYTHING IS FUN TO U..

do u noee..WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIMEEEEe to play..when to be seriouss..

it's not funn...nor izzit funnyy..to pass sum sarcastic remarks when sumone is seriously in BAD STATE of PAIN and AGONY..

it's not at all..

the WORSE THING..

U DIDN"T EVEN APOLOGISEEEe...U DIDN"T EVEN BOTHERRRR...U JUZ PASSED ITT..and WALKED AWAE HAPPILY..THINKING it's a JOKE..

haf u spared a thought for tt person who's SCREAMING IN AGONY in her heart?? U DIDN'T...at all..

nxt time u wanna do this..PLZ THINK!! plz find out wad is actualli going on before u make those comments of urs..

*sick*

gAAAaaaaaaaaaaaa

2006-03-24T01:41:00.000+08:00

*ROARSss*..

work is clashingg..with mani stuffss..

sry joanna..i ps-ed u todaeee..cuz...realli no choicee..hope u understand..i also wanna go shop!! pluck eye brows!! hehehee..bleahhh..

i realli haf to find timee..and push myself to get the damn proposal on my part done to bec..when can i realli meet RINO and JOANNA to cmf things?? hehehe..die die by sat!!

and..money matters...sry min..and joyce..i noe i like stress u all a lot..esp min..kept pushing u..hehehe..sry...i still love yaa!! we'll..work together and make things happen!! hahaha..[= ...

aNd..dun hate mee plzzz....bLEaHh....hehehe..i think i stress min the most..realli sry gal...[= *pEacee*

::i realli hate the wae u make me feel..stop addin on to it..::

HaF i?...haf U?

2006-03-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

it's back to this issuee..

been thinking..and i realise..i did change..alrite..i did..and it's a fact..it's not a feeling anymoree..i did..good or badd..bad or goodd..changing to blend into the surroundings?! i dunnoee..changing fer the worse?!

noww..wad's simplicity? in fact..it's wad i juz wan...i juz wan to be happiee..with ur own grp of frenz..everyone together..not here sum..dere sum..haf i..becum more arrogant?! more stuck up?! more attitude prob?! more superficial..or even more bitchy?? dun worry..dun need to console mee..juz thinkin..i nv sae i am.. superficial..i feel strongly fer tt..

how can i..learn to be more simple? to think simple? can it realli change a person?! i dun wan..to be arrogant..or wad...i juz wan..everyone to learn togetherr..to help each other..to haf fun..and pick each other up..everyone..improve togetherr..and move on together..de last thing i realli wish to see..is the gap built up btw everyonee..

but sumtimes it's the cruel fact..which like seperates ppL..it's alwaes the same few ppl everyone will hang around with..den when..will we get the chance to all mix around? and when will ppl ever get true to each other?? how mani ppl u haf around u..who are actualli true to u? not a lot i can saee..i can onli name few..and these are the ppL..who will stay by u..see u thru..

all thesee..doesn't onli imply to mee...think abt itt..haf u changed..ever since de first time u stepped in..how did u look..and how did u look noww...who did u mix around with the first time u camee..and look at ur grp of frenz now..from the shy quiet u..to the loud agressive u..haf u changed fer the worse? or fer the better? while moving on..haf u forgotten those who are being left behind by u?! think abt it..maybe i've changed..but haf u?

it's juz a genral post..not referring to anyone de..[=..and it's not a sad post!! hehee

NUMb..

2006-03-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

MOsAic0 iN the morning..den went to fren's hse fer a while..watched sum horror moviee!! ARGH!! so...frightening..not scary laa..but shocking and all...i think rino got scared by meee instead of the showww!!! hahahaa..ok..i admitt..i haf EXTREEMMEEeee reactionss...hehehe...[=

denn..went ps..to meet min min...yeaps!! den we shop..and i bought a top..den min..jealouss leee..haixx..can't stand this jealous pigg..hehehe...denn...yeah..near pss..got NEW CINEMAAAA.....rino sae got..den we go search..and we found itt!!! hahahaa....tmr work...den...meet rino and min?? hahaa...go rino's hsee..ltr she eat us up...hehehehe...had fun todaee..simple yet..happieee..

i realli lovee these ppL!! hehehee..

chatted with sumone on my wae homee...andd...realised sum stuffss..suddenly..i feel a lil betterr..a lil moree..hMmmm..how should i put itt..a lil more suree..tt i should quit this game of 4..once it evaporates..everything will be too late fer return..and i juz wun feel the same anymoree..

to caree..to lovee..to let go

in the world of lovee..dere's no escape for heartwrecking Hurts..
in ur eyes..i see otherss....
like an unsung song..an unplayed film..
i'm where we started..juz outside tt place..de first time i spoke to u..
i grew in my tiredness..til i'm breathless and numb..
in the mist of darkness..i'm not myself anymore...

i tot of the first timee i saw u..
dere was a weird whirl of attraction which drew me to u..
i felt in me..tt i secretly wanted to get closer to u..
reminisce of the second time i saw u..
i actualli felt tt i wasn't as happiee..
because of the gap btw us which i knew..

izzit lovee..or izzit tt u're simply too truee..
u made me did things i nv realli tot i will..
i juz noee i wanna see ya happiee..
everything goes..as long as i can get closer to u..

i can onli put wad i realli wanna sae in my heart..
cuz tt's the onli wae i can make u a happier person..
i noe it'll be tough..and it'll be heartwrecking..
but i'm willing to endure all storms..

i noe..juz how honey-suger- candy filled u can be with ur girL..
tt's y i chose to stay by u silently..
my heart bleeds..everytime i think of u and her or her..
tt's nth i can do nor sae..except to retreat slowly..
and to endure all the pain..

NiCEee 'FaMilY diNneR'

2006-03-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

aft a 3 - 4 hrs meeting which sent everyone to sleeep.....finally....it ended...

went to join min..sk and willie nxt door to watch date moviee..quite dumb...quite funny...hahaha...fin watching lee..den went to eat...xin and glen didn't join us..cuz xin's kinda in a rush...

den....de few of us..went holland to eatt..NICE YUMMMY DOPEEE FOODd!! seriously..it isn't realli the food laa..it's the get together and stuffs..hehehe..of cuz with nice food laa..hahaha..we..we...wee went crystal jade eat...cuz [s]daddiee (oooPPps!!) was craviN fer sum La MiaNnn..and i was craving fer sum xiao long bao!! wooTss!! hehhee...den we ordered..quite a lott...2 baskets of xiao long bao..1 basket of veg dumpling..1 plate of dumplin in chilli oil..jelly fish to kick off the meal..1 zha ziang mian..1 hot and sour noodle..1 prawn fried rice...2 plain rice..andd...hMmmm..tt's all?? i dunnoe laa..sumthing like tt..haha..it was fer 5..!! hehehe...so the LUCKY 5!! hehee..sk..min..yen..willie..me

had fun..had nice foodd...and min..sway to the max..hahaha..dun wan sae her lee....aft jadey...weee...ate desserttt.....att...SWENSENS!!! hahhaa..dun jealouss...EARTHQUAKE...so yuMmmy!!! hehehee...daddiee treat us to earth quakey...so nice of him!! [=..will treat u back sooN..tmr...gif u surprise k daddiEee...[=

psst : he's not my dad laa...!!! it's...whahaha...[s] dad...fer me to noe..fer u to guess!! hehehe

den nowwww....for sum thots...

how do u react..when u think u've fallen fer sumone..yet..tt sumone had fallen fer the other sumone?!

wad..realli is love all abt? bLeaH!! is finding joy in loving sumone a difficult process??

wad if u did love..yet dun haf the courage to face it urself?! will u juz standby? and watch the chance go? and watch ur bird fly awae from u??

i did witness one who seized the chance..and told me he/she didn't regret in wad he/she did..

i also witness one who is pending noww..indecisive of wad he/she wants..he's gonna be gone from her quite soon...yet she can't find the courage to let him noe he did make a difference in her life..

same thing, i witness one who is half wae dere in confessin already..yet she retreated..at the same time..she feels hurt becuz the guy told her how much he love this girl..and she listens and pretends she dun like him at all..

also witness this girl..who fell in love with sumone else's steadd..yet she noes he can bv be hers..

wad abt a triangle love? Z likes A..B likes Z..B and C is quite good frenz..and C likes Z too..but B dunnoee..A dunnoe B and C....and A did like B fer a while i guess...

so mani kinds...wad kind are u??

but honestly...i'll rather u guys try and fail den to nv try at all and fail...if u realli love sumonee..let them noeee..dere's no right or wrongg..and..loving sumone doesn't mean tt u haf to haf him or her...u juz haf to learn to find joy in the process of loving him or her...[=..

OveRrr...

2006-03-18T01:54:00.000+08:00

ok...sry ppL!! hahaa..nv update...nv cum onlinee..but...BACK ON POPULAR DEMAND...whahahaa...

yesterdaee..zouk comp..1st..jj's grp!! ( stephanie also got dance)...2nd..our very own OUTFATTIESss by sHaR..VoN..aRieL aNd XiN...our hUmJi YeN decided to back out...whahaa...3rd is our very own urban sLeaKers..!! woooTtt..

D.U.H...did our besst..and had fun bah..!!! hehehee..[=...we got taka vouchers also mah!!! hahaha...[=..realli love D.U.H so much!!! hahaa..dunnoe y...thanks SaNg Kiat..SoPhIee..MiN anD RhINo fer the fun filled journey!!! hehehe...[=.........dun SEPERATE Kkkk..muz one piecee k...hehheehehe...

aNdd...aft comp...club la durr...den battle and play with RP ppl...dope and fun...met a few frenzz..esp tricia and felicia...damn nice gurls!! likes them!! hehehee..

den xin's hseee to ton...vcds..foods..piano..studios..bathee..fer the nitee..slept at 5am...woke up at 922am..(actualli promised Dj KeN to wake him up at 9..but i overslpt)....den..i go back sleep...den wake up at 11++am..den go disturb rino and sk..den we tok..and luff til peng...hahahhaa...damn funny..den breakfast...!! hahaa....YeN..ariel..sk..rino..andd ok laa..mee laa...we noe wad we didd...shHHHhhssss!!!! hehehehhee...[=...den swim...cuz..everyone got thrown into the pooL....ariel and yen got down..unprepared...hahaha...funny..and play and swim...hehehe...i love it man..thanks fer the fun ppL...hehee

aft tt...went to jalan kayu to eat..with dou..ling..sk and skyee..den...meeting at 730..we...drag til.....me and skye...like almost 9pm den reach...bleah..butt..ok laa..my fault...sry...hehehe..

den..HOME SWEET HOMEee!!!

everything's overr...i lovee BaTtalion..i lovee D.U.H...and i LOVEE NRAAaaa~~

kai unto ur hand

2006-03-11T01:23:00.000+08:00

11th march..fer kai:

when u're outta sight..maybe u tend to be outta mind..sry..fer neglectin u..and yeah..we did saee..u're the one who brought us even closer..and we muz keep this bond..becuz it's the last thing u ever gave us..but..kai..it's painful..

infact..i hate to go tmr..i hate to think back..i hated the scenes...i hated the awfully familiar smell of tt place..i hated tt unsympathetic cold placee..i hated tt deafeaning silence..i hated every tear which rolled down my cheek..i hated tt exasperatin feeling...i hated tt helplessness...i hated tt faith i gave..which gave no return..

most of all..i hated the sight of u..cuz each sight of u..brought me intense pain and remorse..i did u so much wrong..and i nv had a chance to sae the things i wanted to sae..even til noww..i wun..and nv will haf the chance to sae anymore..i hated the things i did to u..i hated the wae i treated u when u were so forgiving towards mee...i hated myself..fer bringing pain to u and her..

u taught mee..the value of forgiveness..and it's still etched in me so deeply..i'll nv forget the wae u told mee..'i had nv blame u qian'...now it's back..it's tt feeling again..it's the feeling of wanting smtg back so badly..even fer a min...it's enuff..all i need..is a min of u..to let me tell the unfinished..to let me tell u i nv hated u..to let me tell u more..to tell u de truth..in fact....

kai..i want u back..everyone wants u back..it's walking into tt deep valley of sadness again..and i dun wan tt..even if i were to see u in my dreams..it's enuff..but y wun u cum back..it's been a yr..and i haven seen u at all..everything...seems to play like a film w/o sound in my head..it's running so fast..it seems like yesterdaee..

it hasn't been easy..fer us to ferget the whole thing..and i feel ur pain kai...each timee i think abt how u suffered before and aft...my heart bleeds..ur mum told mee..how u did wake up in the middle of the nitee..to hug and cry to her..and tt she's nv seen u this down in ur whole entirely 19 yr of life..and i'm resentfuL..i wasn't dere fer u when u needed me most..yet u were there fer me when i needed sumone most..i still hated myself..fer turning down the sentosa trip for other things..and i guess..i should haf learnt..nv to keep procrastinatin thinking everything should be finee..cuz i simply took..everything fer granted..i knew u were down..yet u juz wanted a simple tok by the beach..and i couldn't grant tt..a few daes ltr..u fell..

i rememebered how u walked me tt long stretch of road..juz keeping quiet..til we finally reached a bus stop far and beyond..we dun even noe where..i remembered all the times back stagee..and the time at the staircase..when i was juz mean and nasty to u..yet u nv blamed mee..and i knew u didn't...i missed the times..5 of us sat down in the canteen..to haf lunch..and the last time..was at hard rock..and i..dun even feel good abt tt place anymoree..it's too painful..it's beyond wad ppl can take..

thinking back..i feel slashes and daggers in mee..dere are still so mani things unfinished..let me see u noww..and i can exchange fer anything in the world material or wadsoever...juz let me see u one last timee..to tell the unfinished..

i'm afraid..i'll lose control of myself tmr...i'm afraid i'll lose it..i realli miss ya so much..yet i noee..dere's nth i can do in this world..to get u back anymoree..and the feeling of wanting sumthing very very very badly yet u noe u can nv nv nv achieve it..jzu sux...it's not like u wan a super nice fonee..yet u sae u cannot get it..cuz it's ex..tt's not cannot haff..it's cuz u dun wan to part with the money..it ain't saying u love this guy..and u can nv haf him cuz he dun love u..cuz he's still alive..it's when u lose sumthing..and no one can ever replace tt..it matters.....

it's when sumone pass awaee..and u can nv haf him/her back...tt's losing him...i dun wan..and i can't afford to lose anyone anymoree..i once was numb with sadness..maybe i was drowned in it..and it hasn't been easy..i...still hate tt last scene of goodbye..it did pierce right thru mee like an arrow and bow thru bull's eye..

i love u kai..and i miss u...u leave my soul breathless again

M0sIaC aRt / hp sPoiL

2006-03-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

met yu xing..sk..ken and xiang fer the mosiac art thingy...shalene and her bf was dere too..it's actualli quite fun laa!! honestly..i dun mind doing itt..but.i juz scared i cannot commit..due to my own work and dance too..bleah!! hehee...see how lorrr...thanks anywae..min...fer intro-ing uss..hahaa..and poor rino...still sorking hard eh??

aft work..went fer my mum's post bdae dinner...hMmm...actualli not realli nice leh...i feel laa..hahaha..i dun likee..eeeeee...hehehee...maybe cuz..no good chilli also...hahaha...all i dun like...so i wun like the foodd..hehehee...tmr work..den dance again...cooL!! hehehe...

but i'm sad..my hp..spoil leee..muz send fer repair..i'm sadd..damn sadd...haixxx...so..i wun haf all ur contacts lee..hahaa..so..anything call mee..cuz i wun call u all..cuz i dun haf ur contacts..it's no in my sim memory k...bleah!!!!!

u invade my mind

HaPpIeee daee todaeee

2006-03-09T02:17:00.000+08:00

i'm...with lionel...gosh...i want xue gao..actualli...and so much fer my proud post...bleah..i want xue gao..!!! lionel...can u all imagine QiaN d0iN saLsa? i can'tt..god..but i will try..damn hard..!! muz help mee k!! woot...hahhaa....

had fun at work in republic..hehehe..[=..tmr..gonna go down to see the mosiac art thing...now it's mee..seNgKiee..xiang..Dj keN..yuxIng...cooL!! fUN!! hahaha..let's go see tmrr..hehe..

and i realli had fun todae...in the studio and all..xuanfeng..BROUGHT HIS XbOx...so they played..haha..in tt tv everyone tot couldn't be used anymoree..haha...[=..i'm juz happie todaee laa....[=..bleah..

and chao..realli can dance raggae man..love this guy's style in raggaee..[=..

because of u

2006-03-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

hMmmm...w0rk..not as fun anymoree..sian half..cuz of..sum stuffs bah...but but but...Jason still the best..and i onli regard him as boss..BLEAH!!!

dunnoe y again..diee..am i feeling empty or wadd..shitt...doom..how howw..i'll feel like ttt..i didn't use to...yet at the same timee..i also feel happieee...how arh..contraditing...cannot make it..

actualli..haf u ever...hMmmm...like fall in love with a person u kinda noe u wun be able to get?? actualli sure yes ritee..but..wad if..tt person..u cannot haf him/her...and..he/she got bf/gf lee..and they are closee....or he/she juz haf sumone close to them leee...den alwaes infront of u...den....u'll sure haf mixture of feelings rite??

if u still feel alrite..not tt heartaching...izzt because u noe how to find joy in loving tt sumone??

or if u feel sour and green with jealousy..izzit because u're sad and envious u can't haf tt sumone??

actualli u realli can haf many types of feelings hor?? i suddenly curiouss...suddenly tot of it..but dun think too much..

and ANGIEEe...lost her hp..y so careless girrL!!! told ya i ever lost before the same wae u did..!!! shit man..=`[

and i'm so sick and disappointed with my work i guesss...no morale to work..realli is no morale to work..dunnoe y..jason gives me a smilee tt tags 'are u ok girl?' butt..i dun need tt man..bleah..i guess everyone isn't happie bah..not juz mee..hope mosaic can be fun..!! heeeHEeeHEeee...

*daedReaM*

D.U.H

2006-03-06T01:40:00.000+08:00

training todaee in sch...on a sundaee..yes..on a sundaee..and all our parents are like going...

parents: where u goinggg??

US (rino/sk/me): sch..to train dancee..

parents: haar?? todae sundae leh!! u suree??

US: yeah...hahahaa...

*rino got a funnier version..*

rino's parents: HAAAR? sundae u all also dance arh?? mei tian tiao tiao tiao...hao lor hao lor...ni men qu tiao qu tiao!!! haha..

it's the wae rino puts it in her own rino rhino wae la!! can't stop luffingg..

and i think..i'm relali falling in love with D.U.H..!! (RINO>MIN>SENGKIE>SOPHIE>QIAN)hahaha..i love them!! thanks guys..

haha..and horr..sry min/rino...ferr....heheheehe....u noe wadd

yeah..so i was saying..we trained in sch...den we went to see ann off..she fly..go japan first den chg to New york..how cooL..how fun..she already Fleww leee...hahahaha..[=..so ..tmr prac..no confidence at all....fer audition...dieee

production..sry min!!! butt..yah...rino..me..sengkie and sophiee's under xue gao!!! MY WISH CUM TRUEe!!!! XUE GAOOOO!!!! woOootS!!!!!! but min..we still love yaa!!! hehehe

and tmrr...MY MUM"S BDAEE LAAAAAAA dieee..aft audition..RUSH HOMEEe!! hehee..niteezz...and....

HAPPIE BDAE MUMMY!!!!!!!

sry girLs

2006-03-04T01:04:00.000+08:00

hMmm..i'm sry..if i hasn't been encouragin..but since u gurls had decided to take up the challange..pump all the wae k..

juz read jess's blog..and i felt soo..wrong abt myself towards u all..maybe she's rite..it's the attitude they will carry throughout...hMmmm...win or not..doesn't matter..as long as u noe tt..u guys did try..and tried ur best..and all the cheoro..will be done by urselves..so..it's supposed to be achievement too yeah!! realli hope fer the best fer u gurls..we'll sure be behind u all dee!! and we'll love to help..if u guys ever need any k..[= wadeva it iss..muz stay happiee..and feel good abt urself!! no one is lousy..and no one will be..unless u urself dun believe in urself..u'll be surprised..and if u nv try..u'll nv noee yah..!! go girlss!!! [= juz..do ur best...dance with a passion..and a smile in ur heart k!!

and i'm sry again..if i hasn't been supportive..but since u guys had decided to take up the challenge..go all the wae k..[=

0RaNgeee...

2006-03-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

0RaNGee..FeRr Yaa!! can Seee???

u aNd uRselF

2006-03-02T01:21:00.000+08:00

hMMmmmm..

can u recall the last time..u wish to be alonee..not cuz u're sad..but..juz cus u juz feel like havin sum peace in u..?

or was it tt..u wanted to be alone pretty much..in a crowd where no one noes u..and u're juz sitting dere..gazin at smtg of ur own interest and letting the thots in ur mind run wildly..

or perhaps..u wanted to be with 1 person..juz one..whom u can juz lean on..and communicate by the language of the heart and not words? while u still gaze at smtg..still with thots in ur head..

maybe..one of the options above..was how i felt todae bah..suddenly..i wish to be alonee..maybe it's too much studying..haha..maybe it's stress bah..maybe..it's other things..i dunnoe wad also..but nowadaes..i keep having thots in my mind..

and LIN SHI MIN!! dun think u can escape k..u IDIOTTT...wad did u post on ur bloggg...u ass...i will take my revenge...u juz waitt!!! and SEEEEEeeee *huMMmmPhh*...but i forgive u fer now..cuz u made the key chain...hahahaha...muackss!!

tmr's my last paper..and it marks my freedom....to do the things i like..to take things nice and slow fer everything...wooott!!

studying

2006-02-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

Min is distracting uss
been studying since 2pm!!! til abt 11.20 pm den go homeee..
who's tt 2 ghost behind meee!!
okok...if he insist..this is SKKk..(who made me stuff more than 15 fries in my mouth at one goal..and made me and rino chew a whole straw into my mouth w/o using hands)

iiii...hMmm..stayed home the whole dae to study with dear rino..shee called me to wake me up at abt 12..den she came over to my hse at abt 2...den we study..ALL THE WAEE..til 6..promisee is study!! *cHEeRs RInO*..den we ate dinner packed by mum and dad..den min came..so we share...and eat..[=..hMmmm..den continue to study..while min slack..

sry min..u..bored to the max...cuz we study mah...den she distract us..ltr show u all evidence...haha..

it was realli nice juz studying non-stop with rino..*non-stop hits k*...haha..nxt time got chance..let's not study..hahaha..let's stay out and up to tok...wooooo!! hehehe..[=..

can't wait fer exams to be over..realli..so i can concentrate on dancin..bleah..not onli tt..so i can do the things i like..go out and such..hehe...and bea happie girl...kinda stress up..wanna dance..but cannott..Levi's dance comp..is realli to big fer me i guess..Levis+Lime+JitterBugs!! damn..it's too big..i haf no confidence at all..dun realli think ann will approve us to join anywae..(Jrs la)..yeaps..[=..and..aft zouk..should concentrate on production le..unless it's a small com bah..[=...but still..GOOD LUCK fer those goin fer Levis!!! we'll support u guys dee..!! [=

happiness/frenship

2006-02-28T01:51:00.000+08:00

wo..zhen de kuai le ma? am i realli happie with wad i haf..who i am now..or am i juz getting used to it..will my blog entry becum pessimistic too?? (argh..told ya it's contagious..)...am i startin to think negative most of de time now..gaaaa..diee...cannot cannott..

aRieL.c ask..wad is frenship to us..to mee..

fRenShiP mEanss..holding each other close to the heart..even when we're outta each other's mind..u'll look forward to seeing each other all the timee..fer eg..before ur lesson..u guys meet to go sch..den lunch..sure meet..aft sch..sure meet..(it becums automatic..once lesson end le will call each other..)..den..go out together aft tt...juz..like everywhere u go..or everything u do...like all do together de...of cuz not 24/7 laa..maybee..it's likee..no matter how tired u are..u wake up,,u make breakfast fer urself..u will make an extra set fer ur fren..and it happens often..cuz u noe..morning lesson 8am..need breakfast fer a perk of energy..so u're willing to do it fer her..[=

frenship..also mean..tt u guys realli enjoy doing things together..juz abt anything and everything under the sun..can tok abt anything..[=..will sure update each other on ur everydae life..like..(which guy is ur new candy-eye and such..)..u enjoy saying..she enjoys listening..

so ur fren..becums ur gossiper..ur study partner..ur work partner..ur dance partner..ur caretaker..ur problem solver..ur listening ear..ur khaki..yeap..so u do stuffs together..which includes not onli the happi things like hangin out and such..u guys..cry to each other..complain to each other..attitude each other..and juz get comfy with each other..[= and it takes timee to open up..

also..likee...fer eg..u all wanna watch moviee..den one person cannot..*a-heMzz YeN*..den u all will WAIT fer tt person..so can watch together...lOLxx..like..willin to chg the date fer tt person..even if 10 ppl said ok lee..yeah lorr..of cuz...do crazy stuffs together...like stuffing more than 10 fries in ur mouth at one go..[=

all theseee...= FRIENDSHIP...

but but butt...ok..i admit..i dun make a good poly fren i supposed..i juz dunnoe how..to be a fren..to acquaintance..i guess..i need real true frenship..who can get thru tough times together too..i juz dunnoe how..realli..to hold sumone who isn't ur fren close to ur heart..it's not abt selecting ur frenz..it's abt..how much effort u both put in to make it possible...cuz in poly..wad u get is hi-bye frenz..or juz acquaintance..i guess u guys noe wad i mean..but i'm thankful..i met a few frenz..and sensing more..[=..thank ppL fer bein a fren..[=

therefore..frenship is precious..cuz true frenz doesn't cum by easy..they wun leave u in a lurch..[=..but also..of cuz all these feelings muz be neutral..it takes both hands to clap!!

SOOOooo.....plz clap with me OH!!! hahahahah...plz start doin all these...where's my breakfast everyoneee????? heheheehehe

de uSuaL

2006-02-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

yen's stUp FaCee
bOo!! guess who? and he/she managed to stay in dere ferabt 15 mins..*not me laa*

w0rK...--->HoMee...--->sTudY(2 questions)...--->sLEeP...--->DiNneR WitH YeN.0RaNge.cHaOz.RiN0...--->HoMe...--->sTUdY

zi wo chui mian

2006-02-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

wHy do i feel so weird todaee...haha..i guess ppl who met me will noee...easily pe ce..diee....

went to work todaee..den..went to watch cha0 dance..hMmm..not bad laa...hahaa...[=..but so mani ppL..all SO TALL!! can't stand it..[=

hMmm..mondae prac k..

hMmmm...dunnoe leh..how arh..y do i feel so sian 1/2 todae?? haiyo..supposed to be happiee de...!! cannot..QiaNx- muz be happieee...muz smiLeee..cannot sad..cannot feel down..cuz it's contagious..

sumtimess..like the song title..'zi wo chui mian'..juz sound so real to mee..sumtimes i realli wanna learn..how to breathe into myself..juz to get more numb to the surroundings..y izzit tt..everything around me seem so impt..i juz can't put any down to lighten my own load..*not like they are all very impt things laa*..

bUt still...yeah..hEeXx...thanks fer being dere fer me ppL..like RiNo..MiNz..etc..hehee..[=

[=

2006-02-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

dere's juz so mani reasons fer me to be happiee..so mani reasons to put a smile on my facee...[=

2006-02-24T00:57:00.000+08:00

xiang preparing fer national daee!!!
he dragging timee..hai wo so late go homeee
taken a few daes ago...steph and mee my daughter and mee....*dun look alike?*
MIN MIN and MEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! [=

todaee..we study and study...woke up late..supposed to meet skye at 1030...end up..i woke up at 11++...diee..
hahaa..den min min kept msging mee..so disturb mee..to wake me up u PIGgg..and we studied...quite a lott...

tmr prac again...yay!! muz prac..cuz..i still...fresh to steps..hehe..tmr paper..sh*t..better study more..i realise..i still dunnoe how to do alott... how??

[=

the dae u came

2006-02-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

been an eventful dae todae...woke up..met skye...bunny came along..and xiang came along...so we went to eat..den study..

til abt 6pm..xiang left with fred and dou and von..to sch to prac..den..we continue to study and slack..den..min came..rino camee..

den.....Hmmmmm...skye and bunny left...so...me min rino went fer dinner...toked like madd..and ah-hemmz...i finally heard sum stuffs...abt mee..not so nice stuffs..which min confessed to mee..but it's past...so...suan lee..

so i realli gif ppl such bad impression of mee?? i noe it's first impression..but..it's still bad la!! iiiii...I AM NOT DAO OK!!!!! i am not..i not proud also can...!! hahaha..dun judgee me by my looks!! hahahahahahah...so dumb...wad to do..i alwaes gif ppl the bitchy impression at first..BleaH!! but MiNnn...UUuu....UUu also wadd...hahaha.jokess....RINOOoo rIINNOoo...u also wadd...ah lian....hehehehehe

eh jess and skye...dun think u read til very happie k...u 2 also arhh...ah lian andd loud...hahahaha..uuuuuuu all bad girll...

aRieL...we..peace ok?? hehehe *peace* [=

hmmm..i think i toking crap..hehe..but sumtimes..it's realli not nice..to keep everything to urself..serious..cuzz..u will feel heavy..and unhappie urself..so..alwaes find sumone to share things k..

and i'm alwaes heree...so...can cum find me too!! [=

so..everyone muz be happie ok?? actualli i'm quite contented with my own life lee...hehehe...[=

but also..dere's this stone in me i can't let go..

ni wan mei de yi qie
jing hui chu xian zai wo de shi jie

dong jie na shi jian
dong jie chu yu na yi tian
song jie na ai lian

dong jie na shi kong
dong jie na hua mian
dong jie bu rang ta rong hua

dere's juz this thing abt u..i can't deny i do

::p0NdeRs::

2006-02-22T01:10:00.000+08:00

MaYbee..i need G0d..i wanna lie in his embrace..his over flowing Lovee..i wanna juz lean back and relax..i wanna feel that..i haf no burdens...*not tt i haf a lot laa*..but i wan..to live in paradise..to live in lovee..where peace reigns..[=

todaee..dopee..we...dance...andd...it feels so goodd..realli..i enjoyed it..thanks guys!! [=..

i dunnoee..how i'm feeling..

HuMaN tRaNsMiSsiOn WaVee

2006-02-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

hMmmm..w0Rk..no zest..how?? no energy..i'm becumin to slack.i can't take it anymoree..dunnoe where my zest ran to lee..sobxx..maybe it ran awae with jason..jenny..cherry..and kiwi's disappearance..but got raymond? got stephaniee..got rain..got angIEe and sum others..i dunNOee..so..wad am i working for now?! no vision..

haf u ever wondered..wad is tt frequency which draws 2 person together?! for examplee...u go outsidee..while waiting fer traffic light to turn green in a sea of ppL...u spot this person...den...sumhow or anotherr..this person felt it..den he also turn and look at u..den u shy..look awae..but u noe he looking at u..he also noe u noticed him..den got this little frequency and connection lee...i'm not saying i did...butt..i'm sure everyone got feel this wae beforee.. so..wad kinda wave is this?? human transmission wavee??

hahahaa...maybe like mircrowavee or wadevaa...hahaha...u gif out this wavee..and the wind particles brings it to him...hahaha...i think i'm toking crap...hahaha..but it's interesting dunch u think so?? how cum can like tt..how do u noe when ppl is looking at u...but u uz got this feelin one rite?? hopefully...one dae..sum scientist can prove this form of wavee...ahhaahhaa....NitEeXxzz..

sMILEeeee

2006-02-18T02:03:00.000+08:00

hMmmm...y does everyone seem down to mee..everyone doesn't seem to be happiee..everyone like got so much prob..y..can't everything be easier fer them?? =`[...cHeeR uP My fReNzx..dere's a wae out fer everythingg!!! there is no problem too Big alright???

hMmmm..L0Veee...LiKEeee...CrUShh...how do u actually differentiate arh?! by differentiation?? *ok..t's lamee*...hMmmm...and...am i seriously...turning numb?? immune to guys? i can't seem to fall in lovee..i dunnoe y..i muz promise myself..my nxt bf..i muz love him..with all my heart..hahaha..and make him the happiest person on earth!!! maybe he'll be suga-honeyed-caramel filled...hahaha...bLEaHh..dun jealouss....[=..slowly wait bah..

bUTt...buTtt...recently..........i feel so sleepy oHh..how arh....

oHh!! and my body is aching so much it hurts laaaaaaaaaaa........gaaaaaaaaa.....!!!